Has anoyone else noticed an extreme tention
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Has anoyone else noticed an extreme tention
... in acute withdrawals. Tension in the upper back, but most of all the shoulders. They are literally up to my ears.
When the nurses ask me, when I'm shaking and feeling this discomfort feeling like a bullet has hit me,
"Is there anything I can do to help you?"
I want to respond, "yes, give me a shoulder massage"... I think that is inappropriate though, and I'm not sure, but I don't think they do that.
It's a result of anxiety (general and social), which I've had since my early teens. Alcohol doesn't help it. I thought it did, it wasn't before my early 20s I actually really got drunk, and I fell in love with it (alcohol) as it relieved my anxiety.
Now, at 35 it has just escalated. It relieves the anxiety for maybe for a couple of hours, but that's it - It just makes it worse in the long run.
Now, I'm not stupid (I think), but I'm not sure how this is going to end.
I apparently have a triple diagnosis (I can read everything that has been written in my journal online), addiction to alcohol, anxiolitycs/hypnotics (benzos), and Schizoid. Now, I agree with the first to, but NOT the schizoid part. Reading the signs/symptoms of being Schizoid, it is totally not me. I may appear that way because of my anxiety. Eg. I want to be social, but it's hard, considering the anxiety.
This week I'm going to detox, no matter what how horrible it's gonna be. I am desperate...
... to get sober.
When the nurses ask me, when I'm shaking and feeling this discomfort feeling like a bullet has hit me,
"Is there anything I can do to help you?"
I want to respond, "yes, give me a shoulder massage"... I think that is inappropriate though, and I'm not sure, but I don't think they do that.
It's a result of anxiety (general and social), which I've had since my early teens. Alcohol doesn't help it. I thought it did, it wasn't before my early 20s I actually really got drunk, and I fell in love with it (alcohol) as it relieved my anxiety.
Now, at 35 it has just escalated. It relieves the anxiety for maybe for a couple of hours, but that's it - It just makes it worse in the long run.
Now, I'm not stupid (I think), but I'm not sure how this is going to end.
I apparently have a triple diagnosis (I can read everything that has been written in my journal online), addiction to alcohol, anxiolitycs/hypnotics (benzos), and Schizoid. Now, I agree with the first to, but NOT the schizoid part. Reading the signs/symptoms of being Schizoid, it is totally not me. I may appear that way because of my anxiety. Eg. I want to be social, but it's hard, considering the anxiety.
This week I'm going to detox, no matter what how horrible it's gonna be. I am desperate...
... to get sober.
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Gosh... I hate it... most likely I will go in two or three days from now. I've called them and they have an available private room on Wed/Thu. (I hate semi-private rooms, as this will be hell...)
Hell... but better in the long run...
Thanks for the tips, Anna.
At the rehab I went to we had 3 Thai full body massages a week as part of the programme. It’s a great way to release muscle tension and works on all the stress points in the body. That and meditation were my saviour in the first couple of months of sobriety xx
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Under supervision, inpatient at a hospital.
Gosh... I hate it... most likely I will go in two or three days from now. I've called them and they have an available private room on Wed/Thu. (I hate semi-private rooms, as this will be hell...)
Hell... but better in the long run...
Thanks for the tips, Anna.
Gosh... I hate it... most likely I will go in two or three days from now. I've called them and they have an available private room on Wed/Thu. (I hate semi-private rooms, as this will be hell...)
Hell... but better in the long run...
Thanks for the tips, Anna.
https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...ml#post7151517 (Super Scared - About to Detox)
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I would suggest that you make a firm reservation and arrange to go. You said you were going "on thursday" a couple weeks ago but I'm guessing you didn't? Don't mess around if you know what you need to do - just call and get there.
https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...ml#post7151517 (Super Scared - About to Detox)
https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...ml#post7151517 (Super Scared - About to Detox)
I should have learned from a previous thread (Let go of my "precious" wine) I made, right after a detox.
What am I doing? What did I promise myself at the hospital as I was turning, tossing, crawling in bed because of the extreme anxiety this leads to? Jumping at the slightest sudden noise, closing the drapes because daylight was too bright for me. Getting nauseous at the sight of food. Pillow drenched in sweats. Legs shaking so bad I could barely walk. Stop it. It's not too late to stop. OR, keep going and you'll be right back at detox within a couple weeks, yet again going through the torture that is withdrawals. Is this a cycle you want to continue?
Total abstinence is the key, even though I have to through several months of PAWS....
Thanks for responding, Scott, and everyone else.
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Wow, that's nice. I detox'd on my own. My parents stayed at my house for the first 2 nights, so I guess not entirely alone. I had considered rehab, but the cost...I didn't want to bother. But I did have to go get a deep tissue as soon as I was able to leave the house after the 3 times I've detox'd.
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Under supervision, inpatient at a hospital.
Gosh... I hate it... most likely I will go in two or three days from now. I've called them and they have an available private room on Wed/Thu. (I hate semi-private rooms, as this will be hell...)
Hell... but better in the long run...
Thanks for the tips, Anna.
Gosh... I hate it... most likely I will go in two or three days from now. I've called them and they have an available private room on Wed/Thu. (I hate semi-private rooms, as this will be hell...)
Hell... but better in the long run...
Thanks for the tips, Anna.
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