Originally Posted by
ScottFromWI 
I know. I chickened out. I promise you I won't this time though, even though the mental pain during withdrawal is .... gosh, I can't even describe how awful it is.
I should have learned from a
previous thread (Let go of my "precious" wine) I made, right after a detox.
What am I doing? What did I promise myself at the hospital as I was turning, tossing, crawling in bed because of the extreme anxiety this leads to? Jumping at the slightest sudden noise, closing the drapes because daylight was too bright for me. Getting nauseous at the sight of food. Pillow drenched in sweats. Legs shaking so bad I could barely walk. Stop it. It's not too late to stop. OR, keep going and you'll be right back at detox within a couple weeks, yet again going through the torture that is withdrawals. Is this a cycle you want to continue?
Why do I keep relapsing... I have tapered, but, well... I've tried to moderate - I've learned it is impossible for me.
Total abstinence is the key, even though I have to through several months of PAWS....
Thanks for responding, Scott, and everyone else.