I fell off the wagon....
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I fell off the wagon....
Been a while since I've posted.
I joined this forum when I first gave up drinking, things were going great, I was sober for a while and all was well.. and things went south. When I became sober, I did things during the evening such as going to some of my favorite stores, pretty much nightly, it was fun... life was grand, I was sober.. then came COVID-19.
The stores I loved and would go to during the evenings closed, and I found myself stuck at home with nothing to do. What helped me stay sober, it was suddenly gone. Life as we knew it, it came to a grinding halt.
I found myself stuck at home, bored, depressed and in that time I fell off the wagon. I'm back to drinking. Just when I became sober, was feeling great and yeah.. just my luck... here's COVID-19 to ****that all up......
I'm not upset at myself or anything, I'm only human.. it is what is is.. this sucks, happened at a horrible time. Now I'm just rambling and so I will stop, sorry....
I joined this forum when I first gave up drinking, things were going great, I was sober for a while and all was well.. and things went south. When I became sober, I did things during the evening such as going to some of my favorite stores, pretty much nightly, it was fun... life was grand, I was sober.. then came COVID-19.
The stores I loved and would go to during the evenings closed, and I found myself stuck at home with nothing to do. What helped me stay sober, it was suddenly gone. Life as we knew it, it came to a grinding halt.
I found myself stuck at home, bored, depressed and in that time I fell off the wagon. I'm back to drinking. Just when I became sober, was feeling great and yeah.. just my luck... here's COVID-19 to ****that all up......
I'm not upset at myself or anything, I'm only human.. it is what is is.. this sucks, happened at a horrible time. Now I'm just rambling and so I will stop, sorry....
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It's so hard isn't it, even the things I took such pleasure in, such as binge watching Netflix, seem depressing! I hope you find your way through this, I wouldn't be able to claw my way out of a relapse but I completely understand how it can happen at this time.
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Originally Posted by daisy1 
It's so hard isn't it, even the things I took such pleasure in, such as binge watching Netflix, seem depressing! I hope you find your way through this, I wouldn't be able to claw my way out of a relapse but I completely understand how it can happen at this time.
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One of the things I did on a daily basis, before covid19, is go to the gym. Now the gym is closed but I found ways to workout at home regardless. One thing I know, the gym I used as a crutch, and I can only use a crutch for so long until I can walk again so to speak.
As much as I don't wanna be the person pushing AA your way, I found that any recovery program (fellowship part of it) could help during these times.
SMART and AA meetings online everyday are available on skype, zoom..
Just showing up and making friends could help, you don't need to swallow all of their "doctines"
As much as I don't wanna be the person pushing AA your way, I found that any recovery program (fellowship part of it) could help during these times.
SMART and AA meetings online everyday are available on skype, zoom..
Just showing up and making friends could help, you don't need to swallow all of their "doctines"
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Welcome back DO - I wondered what happened to you.
yeah its hard when your sober routine just stops dead.
This is like a once in a century event, but we have to adapt our recovery plan to it or we'll lose ourselves again - and noone wants that.
I'm glad you made it back, man.
D
yeah its hard when your sober routine just stops dead.
This is like a once in a century event, but we have to adapt our recovery plan to it or we'll lose ourselves again - and noone wants that.
I'm glad you made it back, man.
D
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Originally Posted by Dee74
Welcome back DO - I wondered what happened to you.
yeah its hard when your sober routine just stops dead.
This is like a once in a century event, but we have to adapt our recovery plan to it or we'll lose ourselves again - and noone wants that.
I'm glad you made it back, man.
D
yeah its hard when your sober routine just stops dead.
This is like a once in a century event, but we have to adapt our recovery plan to it or we'll lose ourselves again - and noone wants that.
I'm glad you made it back, man.
D
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Originally Posted by Dee74
Stopping drinking is the first step back, man.
you can't work out where you need to go until you stop poisoning yourself.
D
you can't work out where you need to go until you stop poisoning yourself.
D
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I have routine for my days off work. Drinking thoughts come up in the evening off and on. But, I know the consequences. I power through and the thoughts disappear.
I am one moment away from being a relapse statistic too. That is why I will not give advice. Addict for life here.
The covid virus changed my world too.
Everything is closed, but opening soon.
I upped my workout game as best I could. Virtual work out programs abound.
I did a little yoga thing yesterday. It was so amazing. The whole stretching thing rocks.
I have a routine that involves way too much TV. I save the workout for mid day, that way I have something to look forward to. Halfway through I have some pre work out. Kicks up the intensity.
Hope this helps a bit.
Thanks.
I am one moment away from being a relapse statistic too. That is why I will not give advice. Addict for life here.
The covid virus changed my world too.
Everything is closed, but opening soon.
I upped my workout game as best I could. Virtual work out programs abound.
I did a little yoga thing yesterday. It was so amazing. The whole stretching thing rocks.
I have a routine that involves way too much TV. I save the workout for mid day, that way I have something to look forward to. Halfway through I have some pre work out. Kicks up the intensity.
Hope this helps a bit.
Thanks.
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Originally Posted by Devious0ne
Been a while since I've posted.
I joined this forum when I first gave up drinking, things were going great, I was sober for a while and all was well.. and things went south. When I became sober, I did things during the evening such as going to some of my favorite stores, pretty much nightly, it was fun... life was grand, I was sober.. then came COVID-19.
The stores I loved and would go to during the evenings closed, and I found myself stuck at home with nothing to do. What helped me stay sober, it was suddenly gone. Life as we knew it, it came to a grinding halt.
I found myself stuck at home, bored, depressed and in that time I fell off the wagon. I'm back to drinking. Just when I became sober, was feeling great and yeah.. just my luck... here's COVID-19 to ****that all up......
I'm not upset at myself or anything, I'm only human.. it is what is is.. this sucks, happened at a horrible time. Now I'm just rambling and so I will stop, sorry....
I joined this forum when I first gave up drinking, things were going great, I was sober for a while and all was well.. and things went south. When I became sober, I did things during the evening such as going to some of my favorite stores, pretty much nightly, it was fun... life was grand, I was sober.. then came COVID-19.
The stores I loved and would go to during the evenings closed, and I found myself stuck at home with nothing to do. What helped me stay sober, it was suddenly gone. Life as we knew it, it came to a grinding halt.
I found myself stuck at home, bored, depressed and in that time I fell off the wagon. I'm back to drinking. Just when I became sober, was feeling great and yeah.. just my luck... here's COVID-19 to ****that all up......
I'm not upset at myself or anything, I'm only human.. it is what is is.. this sucks, happened at a horrible time. Now I'm just rambling and so I will stop, sorry....
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I'm glad you came back!
You can definitely get through this, DeviousOne. Of course, the first step is to stop drinking and give yourself a few days to recover. I'd encourage focusing solely on your physical recovery and being kind to yourself over these initial days.
You know we're here for you.
O
You can definitely get through this, DeviousOne. Of course, the first step is to stop drinking and give yourself a few days to recover. I'd encourage focusing solely on your physical recovery and being kind to yourself over these initial days.
You know we're here for you.
O
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Originally Posted by Devious0ne
It's hitting me hard tonight... this isn't what I wanted, I was on such a good path and then this. The effects of COVID-19 isn't affecting only those who become infected, but those who struggle with addiction, or mental health issues now having to cope with not having what helped them.
It’s not COVID. That’s a trick of your AV. The whole world is affected by COVID but the whole world’s not drinking. It’s your addiction which cleverly snuck in and convinced you this could be a solid excuse. That’s why you blamed it in your first two posts back. Next time, your AV will try something else (a loved one’s death, a world war, a 9/11 or Hurricane Sandy event, a broken hip/leg). But NONE of these are reasons why you would be drinking.
Think of it as you don’t want to drink, not that you can’t drink.
Important point: just because you drank yesterday or even 5 minutes ago, you’re 100% allowed and capable of stopping right now. Just bc you just drank doesn’t mean you have to keep drinking. Start (and finish) now. Be sober. For good.
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Having sobriety depend on some external circumstance does not work for the like of me. Often you hear of the chap who stays sober to keep his wife. What happens if she leaves? His reason for staying sober goes with her.
Corona is a bit different. Who could have predicted a few months back what was going to happen? But the same principle applies. It is possible to stay sober regardless of anything, if you have treated the internal condition.
Corona is a bit different. Who could have predicted a few months back what was going to happen? But the same principle applies. It is possible to stay sober regardless of anything, if you have treated the internal condition.
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Welcome back! it’s a big first step just coming back again and telling us what happened! I think a lot of us are going stir crazy from covid-19! I was afraid of this when covid-19 first started! That is people returning to drinking because meetings would be closed! In your case it’s because your outlets that helped you cope with sobriety are closed due to covid-19!
I would do everything you can to stop drinking! Keep on posting on here and keep reaching out! I know if it happened to me I would hope I would get back to meetings under normal conditions! These aren’t normal conditions cause there’s no meetings now! My next step would probably be to call my therapist that I no longer see and go over the options on what I should do! That might include checking into a treatment center if they’re taking on any patients during these times!
I would do everything you can to stop drinking! Keep on posting on here and keep reaching out! I know if it happened to me I would hope I would get back to meetings under normal conditions! These aren’t normal conditions cause there’s no meetings now! My next step would probably be to call my therapist that I no longer see and go over the options on what I should do! That might include checking into a treatment center if they’re taking on any patients during these times!
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Sorry for making posts, and then running off. I have a hard time opening up. I'm very personal, don't talk much about personal things to anyone, and even on this forum where I'm not known, still a struggle. I'm trying to get better at opening up.. but it's a struggle.
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Originally Posted by Devious0ne
Trying to figure out how to start back at square one.
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