Obladi

It's not at all easy, but it's really quite simple.

SobrieTee

Hey, O. Just stopping by to say hello. I've been keeping up with your (new) thread. I love the honesty in your posts - it's so refreshing. So glad to hear things are going well for you Congrats on speaking at your meeting!! It sounds like a very fulfilling experience.

Happy Friday

Obladi

Cool, Sobrie. Thanks for stopping in!

I still have a ways to go on the honesty part, but it's something I'm striving for because the more real I get the more healed I get.

It's my last day at work before a week off to help my mom pack up to move and I'm really struggling with actually going in as opposed to working from home. *Huge sigh* Alright, I'm going.

I think.

Soberwolf

We're with you O xxxxxxx

Obladi

Back at you, Wolfie.

Toss-up tonight over going to a meeting or filing taxes. I opted for taxes because waiting until I was home next Saturday would be just a little bit too much stress for me. It's silly how I procrastinate given that I always get a refund...

Which now makes me think I should be looking for a cruise on which to spend said refund.

Friday night on the eve of vacation is a good place to be.

Obladi

Youngest said she was going to see a band tonight. It's 4 am and I haven't heard from her, she's not answering her phone. Say a prayer she's just being irresponsible, please?

Soberwolf

I hope you hear from her soon O xx

Obladi

She's alive. Slept out at some guy's place. I think he's like 30. She's 18, a few days ago!

God help me.
I found his number by tracking her calls and am now sitting on my hands trying to restrain myself from harassing him.

sleepie

Hi Obladi I hope she is ok

Soberwolf

We're with you O xx

Obladi

Wow, was I pissed.

Made a list of consequences on the plane and am real glad I had time to think.

She is incredulous; she's an adult now - why am I "making her feel bad" about "forgetting" to call me?

1. You lied to me about what you were doing
2. You told me you'd be home by 11
3. You didn't answer your phone until I called the guy
4. I had no idea where you were

"I'm an adult! Why can't you just let me live and be happy ?"

Obladi

She threw my drinking at me.
I said you have a right to be mad about that and we can talk about it anytime, but don't EVER use that against me in an argument again because that's flat out wrong.

Obladi

So there are good and bad things about being home, and they are the same things. My brother who is undergoing chemo stopped by yesterday, extremely shaky. Went to the hospital last night and the ER folks thought maybe it was a pulmonary embolism.

He asked me if I could go hang out with his kid and I said of course!

Turns out it's "only" pneumonia.
Funny how the scale changes when you're dealing with cancer.

Soberwolf

Sorry O x

sleepie

Obladi

fini

take good care of yourself, Obladi, while caring for others.

Dee74

Sorry about your brother Ob.

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Obladi

He promises to give the bed to someone who actually needs it soon.

Obladi

I would've thought this packing up of my childhood home would have been very emotional, but it's not at all. It's just very dusty.

Obladi

So perhaps it is emotional to pack up all this stuff, but I'm not recognizing it. I've been getting extremely sleepy early in the evening and staying in bed for 7-8 hours. The time difference has a role for sure, but I wonder

Mom is keeping about 80% of what we've been through so far. That's a lot of stuff and my brother is inclined to fuss at her about it. My thought is that it's her perogative.

Have not been to a meeting yet. Being home is sort of like being in purgatory. I forget. (Not bad, not good, just limbo.)