Here we go....Day One has started
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Join Date: Dec 2007
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Originally Posted by ken67 
.....it is through this site, AA, and the grace of God that I still continue forward on this journey.
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You're a better man than I am, Ken (and I'm not a man) to even think about going to a meeting in the throes of acute withdrawal. I couldn't even leave the house for the first few days, much less go to a meeting and sit among people when I felt like a raving lunatic who thought she was dying! All the best to you, together we CAN do this.:ghug2
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Least when I was in detox we went to a meeting every night, I was beyond a mess the first 3 meetings I went to.
The 4th one I went to when they were passing out 24 hour chips I marched right up there and got one. Well I sat down and this guy very nicely told me that you are only suppose to pick up one your FIRST 24 hours and not EVERY 24 hours!!! LOL
I have since given every one of them away to other newcomers, I always try and keep one in my pocket. Last night I gave away my 24 hour chip and all the rest we had to the Alateen kids, they had some new kids come in, it was no problem giving that chip up.
BTW I hope this is a better morning Ken!
I hope you are not thinking "That Taz is a big fat liar, I feel worse then ever and he said it will get better!"
The 4th one I went to when they were passing out 24 hour chips I marched right up there and got one. Well I sat down and this guy very nicely told me that you are only suppose to pick up one your FIRST 24 hours and not EVERY 24 hours!!! LOL
I have since given every one of them away to other newcomers, I always try and keep one in my pocket. Last night I gave away my 24 hour chip and all the rest we had to the Alateen kids, they had some new kids come in, it was no problem giving that chip up.
BTW I hope this is a better morning Ken!
I hope you are not thinking "That Taz is a big fat liar, I feel worse then ever and he said it will get better!"
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Join Date: Mar 2008
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The meeting sucked.....turned into a pity-party...but I stayed and read the BB through it.
Feeling quite a bit better today....got some sleep, have some energy, and looking forward to going back to work tomorrow.
Feeling quite a bit better today....got some sleep, have some energy, and looking forward to going back to work tomorrow.
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Hi Ken, I'm so glad that you are feeling better. Awesome job, man! Thank you for sharing what you are going through & your journey so far with such honestly & clarity - no sugarcoating. Your perseverance & strength shows what can be accomplished when we reach out to others & deep within ourselves for strength. In my thoughts & prayers. D
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Good deal Ken! I hope you have other meetings to choose from. every one of them is different, pity party meetings are ones I avoid, I prefer to live in the solution and not in the problem. There is nothing in the world wrong with meeting shopping.
Have a good weekend, I hope to hear Monday of better things!
Have a good weekend, I hope to hear Monday of better things!
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Taz,
I was out of town when I went to that meeting....the one's in my area all seem good so far.
Just got home from work....I'm a little exhausted.
I think I'm gonna pop in a movie and relax, enjoy a little "me" time.
Day 8........wow.
I was out of town when I went to that meeting....the one's in my area all seem good so far.
Just got home from work....I'm a little exhausted.
I think I'm gonna pop in a movie and relax, enjoy a little "me" time.
Day 8........wow.
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Join Date: Mar 2008
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Well....it wasn't so relaxing.
Kinda hard watching movies that glorify alcohol.....I turned it off and watched Pay It Forward instead.
Couple of strong urges, but through prayer and a very special 24 hour coin, (remind me to tell you the story later), they went away in short order....although a little bit of shakng and anxiety stuck around for a few more minutes.
Meeting tomorrow at 8am, so I'm going to sleep and putting my thoughts to bed.....I believe God will let me rest, and I will awake with an eagerness to begin my day amongst friends, go to my store and work a full day, then another meeting and fellowship.
Thank you all again for your continued support, encouragement, and prayers......I know I will need more in the days that follow.
As I've said before, the easy part is over, the real work will soon begin.
Kinda hard watching movies that glorify alcohol.....I turned it off and watched Pay It Forward instead.
Couple of strong urges, but through prayer and a very special 24 hour coin, (remind me to tell you the story later), they went away in short order....although a little bit of shakng and anxiety stuck around for a few more minutes.
Meeting tomorrow at 8am, so I'm going to sleep and putting my thoughts to bed.....I believe God will let me rest, and I will awake with an eagerness to begin my day amongst friends, go to my store and work a full day, then another meeting and fellowship.
Thank you all again for your continued support, encouragement, and prayers......I know I will need more in the days that follow.
As I've said before, the easy part is over, the real work will soon begin.
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Join Date: Mar 2008
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Day 10....my first Monday back at work, and we all know how Monday's can be.
I have a stack of messages, and hve to deal with ton's of issues, and the anxiety I'm feeling right now about it is worrisome.
Usually, I am the ultimate multi-tasker, but mybrain has been a little foggy, I'm not getting much sleep, and I dread going in today, although normally I can't wait to get there.
I own the business, it is my dream, but this feeling sucks.
I woke up this morning and actually thought of having a couple quick gulps of whiskey to calm myself down, and I have NEVER drank in the morning.
I have a stack of messages, and hve to deal with ton's of issues, and the anxiety I'm feeling right now about it is worrisome.
Usually, I am the ultimate multi-tasker, but mybrain has been a little foggy, I'm not getting much sleep, and I dread going in today, although normally I can't wait to get there.
I own the business, it is my dream, but this feeling sucks.
I woke up this morning and actually thought of having a couple quick gulps of whiskey to calm myself down, and I have NEVER drank in the morning.
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