Icandothis2013

So I chose to drink and did indeed consume copious amounts of wine from Saturday until last night. I had problems with my son, with an elderly relative, my work, money… which of course were not solved at all by wine. Today i feel down and ill . I am making a thread here that I will update daily. So it’s Day 1 (again).

Hevyn

Welcome to Day 1. As your name says, yes you can do it - and maybe you're ready to. The last time I went back out was pure hell - but it led to me being willing to save my life.

Glad you're here with us.

mns1

Glad you're here as well Ican. Hope things balance out for you soon enough.

Anna

I'm glad to see you back, Ican.

Bethany57

I'm so glad you are here. I really admire you for your honesty and strength. I love your user name. You know why? Because You Can Do This. Tomorrow will be a brighter day for you.

spen71

You can do this! Just keep away from the first drink!

Dee74

Welcome back ICDT
How’s your shoulder?

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Icandothis2013

Shoulder much better , thanks Dee ! I had a great physio !

Dee74

Glad to hear it

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RAL

Great to see you back icdt 👍😀

Alpine

Great to see you back. Has the therapist started you with pendulums?

kes

Hi Icdt,

There's omly so many times you can have a day 1. If you keep on drinking you won't have another day left to have a day 1. Harsh reality Ican, but the truth. If I relapse there's no day 1's for me, It'll be curtains, show over, kerplunk. One drink and I'll have to see through to the end.

Please don't think I'm busting your chops, I'm trying to say it as it is and not one to mince my words.

Good luck and keep posting.

dustyfox

Good to see you back!

Icandothis2013

I’m way past that ..can put hands above head. The only thing I can’t do is put my hand up behind back, but am working on it. But the pain has GONE ! :-) :-)

zenithboy88

Hi Ican,
. I'm so happy to hear that you are doing a lot better.
When someone's in the kind of pain that you had, well let's say I don't even know how I would deal with it.
I'm glad you're back!

Behappy1

I have had SOOOO many day 1's it's not funny. Good on you for coming back. I didn't, I isolated further even from this anonymous forum. It didn't help me AT all. I am 6+ months now. At first it was hour by hour, then day after day for a LONG time, then week after week. I KNOW I am still very early, but I am in SUCH a better place.

When I was first trying I was of the mentality of "screw it today, I'll start tomorrow or next week, month, first of the year etc). Now my sobriety is something that I don't want to say "screw it" too. Hope this makes sense.

advbike

So good to see you, Ican. I am so glad the pain is gone and you're back on track. There's a saying in AA that "we're right where we need to be", or something like that, and I believe it. The acceptance has to be there, and it comes from repeated failures and lessons, unfortunately. And we have to be ready to do whatever it takes. So, yeah I hope you are there.

After my slip-up last month I re-read the part in Alcohol Explained about why we have a tendency to forget how bad it was and think (once again) that we can drink in moderation. It made me realize I have to read my "relapse notes" EVERY SINGLE DAY, as well as coming on here - to remind myself exactly how bad it can get, how many aspects of my life are impacted, and how long it takes to get back, once I have taken that first drink.

Anna

I'm so glad that your shoulder pain has gone. That was a terrible experience for you.

CaptainHaddock

Ican, I add my voice to those who say it’s good to see you back. I’m glad your shoulder is better too.

Icandothis2013

It truly was ! But I appreciated the kind support on here !