Vincent484

What an *******. I hate myself so much

Steely

Most of us have felt same Vincent. I have.

Get back to loving yourself again. Get back to the peace of sobriety.

You'll be feeling better in a few days Vincent. Put it behind you. Learn, and move on.

Vincent484

I dont want to stop yet

Steely

Why not?

C0ntr0ls

I couldn't or wouldn't stop until I was ready no matter what I was told or how much I lost. I hope that day comes for your before it's too late.
I was lucky that I only spent thousands and thousands, lost friends, my wife and kids. I could have killed people and lost my freedom.

YMMV and good luck.

Dee74

you posted this not too long ago.

Hate the addiction not the addicted Vincent

The AV is telling you you don't want to stop yet - it speaks nonsense - reclaim your power and stop.

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FreeOwl

Hey Vincent.... me too.

In my case, yet another dumb decision and cannabis.

A two-day mini-bender that has left me depressed and disappointed with myself, questioning my life, feeling disconnected, feeling like a failure.

I know these feelings will fade, and I won't allow this decision to derail my getting right back onto the path of cannabis-free, sober living.

But it's definitely tiresome and feels worse than the last time perhaps because I SO know better. It was all so positive without the weight of a drug holding me in a dreary emotional place.

Relapse is such a despairing experience.

I hope you'll embrace the positives, start anew and keep at it. That's my plan.

owen90

Was there a week ago. It sucks, it really does. Dust yourself down and get back on the horse man. You've got so much more to offer.

Gabe1980

Me too. Hating myself is my go to for just about everything.....this is hard but can be done. Try and find a little bit of compassion for yourself and just look after yourself as you get back on track,. You are here - you do want this xx

JustJohn

Because the pain doesn't outweigh the perceived pleasure yet. I imagine we've all been there multiple times. You have to become sick and tired of being sick and tired - then and only then does the decision to abstain seem to stick.

DriGuy

I hated myself when I drank too. Much of that will go away when you quit. You say you don't want to, and I get that too. But eventually it gets to a point when you have had enough.

biminiblue

Well, keep reading and posting. Eventually it will stick.

Sanity is the natural order of things, not inebriation.

You'll turn this around.

ScottFromWI

I hope the new day has brought you some motivation to put it down Vincent. You are the same person you were prior to picking up, it's just your addiction telling you the lies about hating yourself/etc. Make choices that matter today - you know how.

Mizz

I hope you make it back to being sober.
The light is shining on the sober road.

advbike

What happened, man? You were doing so well. Examine your thoughts around it.

And keep posting Vincent, we need you here.

Anna

Vincent, I hope you check in today and let us know how you're doing today.

Gabe1980

Hey Vincent. Don't let those feelings and thoughts about yourself win. keep at it x

Vincent484

I just dont know what happened

anxiousrock

I've been there, and I feel for you. I know that pain all too well. Thinking of you!

Aellyce

I think you picked up the drink and drank it, that's what happened, it's not very useful to overthink it. But I get all those feelings too, it was similar for me during/after my recent relapse. I definitely didn't regret though that the drinking episodes remained relatively isolated and I didn't let it turn into a more complicated relapse, back to square one. I hope you will get back on track, I really enjoyed reading your recent posts with all those " Peace from Mind" quotes and I think we may have some similar tastes for inspiration, would love to see more .