sortofhomecomin

Hi.

Due to my ongoing treatment at the hands of my toxic abusive family I am now actively looking for ways to end it.

Coldfusion

Hi

You have support here. Call a crisis line if you really feel desperate.

Coldfusion

Please read this post:

https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...ease-read.html

Coldfusion

I'm still here. I think the most succinct thing to say is (not intending to be snarky) "Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem." Even a situation with your relatives can be worked out somehow.

fishkiller

What coldfusion said. Seek help

Don't choose the permanent solution to a temporary problem.

We care, please seek help immediately

TiredCarpenter

Glad you reached out. That’s a big thing.

Anyone being abusive to you can go fly a kite. Take comfort in the fact that you’re sober and taking positive steps forward. Let them keep their misery if they want it.

Also....I’ve just been through the ten week to 12 week part. Right at 72 days,I remember, felt really unwell, cloudy urine, tired, sore gut, crabby....since then my body and brain have sorted whatever chemical imbalance and healing I still needed. At 100 days I’m feeling quite well and relaxed.

You’re doing great, it only gets better!

If you have a similar experience, 20 days from now you’ll feel 400% better.

D122y

The only training I have on this situation is to tell you to call for help from a trained person.

In the US calling 911 will get the fastest help.

Thanks.

sortofhomecomin

I can't call any hotlines as my brother's kids are in the house or will be shortly. I have to hide in my bedroom as my sister is coming and she wants me to die (has assaulted me on a previous occasion). I registered on that suicideforum from the link Coldfusion posted. My mother was supposed to have told my sister and my brother (the kids' father) than I am back in her house 'this weekend' but yet again has failed to do the simple things I ask of her, such as, you know, picking up the phone. She drinks in the house too. Nothing I can do as it's her house and I have no legal rights here. No family support at all. Moving out is not an option due to Level 5 Covid in Ireland now and in any case my anxiety is too off-the-charts to arrange the logistical planning of a move and I don't have the funds to even employ a moving company. No car either, can't afford one.

SoberLeigh

You are not alone. The people here care about each other, sortofhomecomin - care about you. Please seek help (your doctor, ER, AE), etc.

These are very unusual times and many people are feeling the effects.

Please stay close.

Wastinglife

I have had suicidal ideations before, meaning not actively planning to commit suicide but have passing thoughts. This may sound odd, but I put this Netflix documentary about World War II on and seeing the death and destruction of war, snapped me out it. I saw 18 year old soldiers laying dead and thought that those kids would give anything to be alive and here I am thinking about killing myself....

2muchpain

I've attempted suicide several times in the past and am very grateful they didn't work out. So many good things have happened that I would of not experienced if my plans had worked out. I have met so many wonderful people that I would of not met, and had many great experiences. I think I made a difference to many people that would not have happened. Your definitely in a very tough spot, but you don't know the many great times you will have in the future and their waiting for you if you can hang on. Try to think about what good things your future holds for you. I know that isn't easy but it can be done. I came from an abusive home also but I'm determined to not let it run my life or end it prematurly. Take care, John

Coldfusion

Here are some good threads to join at SoberRecovery. Also, many AA meetings are online right now.

https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...ml#post7531471 (Class of July 2020 Part 3)

https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...ml#post7527066 (Class of August 2020 Part 2)

https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...ml#post7531594 (24 Hour Recovery Connections Part 504)

https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...er-2020-a.html (Welcome to Weekenders 23-26 October 2020)

A tiny sample of AA meetings online (near Seattle, Pacific Time , GMT -7h):

https://eastsideaa.org/meetings/?tsml-type=ONL

Erica375

Sortofhomecomin, if you can't reach someone IRL for help, stick with us here. Think of it this way: you now have people all over the world worried about your welfare and sending you love and support. Please keep posting.

Steely

Your thinking won't remain like this sortofhomcomin'.

Please begin by talking to your doctor about the way you are feeling. Phone the Hotline. You need support at the moment.

There is plenty support here, but first step talk with your doctor. Please keep posting.

People really do care sortofhomcomin'. And so do you. ❤️

Anna

Since you feel you can't leave or call for help, please call one of the hotlines to speak to someone. And, do keep posting here:

Samaritans UK & ROI
National
Contact by: Face to Face - Phone - Letter: - E-mail:
Hotline: +44 (0) 8457 90 90 90 (UK - local rate)
Hotline: +44 (0) 8457 90 91 92 (UK minicom)
Hotline: 1850 60 90 90 (ROI local rate)
Hotline: 1850 60 90 91 (ROI minicom)Call 999 or 112 if you or someone you know is about to harm themselves or someone else.

Samaritans Free 24 hour listening service for anyone in distress.

FreePhone: 116 123
Website:samaritans.org
E-mail Helpline:[email protected]
24 Hour service:

Dee74

I’m sorry you are so low sortofhomecoming. Please keep talking to us.

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MythOfSisyphus

I hope you're doing okay, sortofhomecoming. We're here to listen!

Meraviglioso

I too attempted suicide and am so thankful it didn’t work out. Please call for help. Stay here with us too.

Erica375

Thinking of you this morning, Sortofhomecomin. How are you doing?

sortofhomecomin

There's a court case against me because the night I had the slip my mum had me arrested. My mum has agreed to contact the cop dealing with the case to try to have it dropped but he is proving hard to get hold of. She has made clear it is not a priority for her otherwise she would have had it withdrawn weeks ago. The next court date is this Friday if case goes ahead.