I'm an alcoholic.
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I'm an alcoholic.
I'm exhausted and can't battle the back in forth moderate (can't moderate) insanity of the last 19 years. I'm currently self-detoxing and stating days for me seems to be triggering.
I want better. I want life again. That has to outweigh the fleeting moments of "relaxation" or "fun" alcohol briefly provides before spiraling deeper into hell.
I've fought too hard for this current life I've been gifted, with unnumbered battles left to fight for my children's wellbeing,wishes and future.
Enough is now enough.
Hello
I want better. I want life again. That has to outweigh the fleeting moments of "relaxation" or "fun" alcohol briefly provides before spiraling deeper into hell.
I've fought too hard for this current life I've been gifted, with unnumbered battles left to fight for my children's wellbeing,wishes and future.
Enough is now enough.
Hello
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Hi and Welcome,
Alcoholism is exhausting and I think it will be a relief for you to stop drinking for good.
It's always a good idea to come up with a plan as to how to stop drinking and how to remain sober.
I'm glad you found us.
Alcoholism is exhausting and I think it will be a relief for you to stop drinking for good.
It's always a good idea to come up with a plan as to how to stop drinking and how to remain sober.
I'm glad you found us.
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Join Date: Mar 2014
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Just don't drink Today. Today is all that matters. My goal in early days? First thing in the morning I would say to myself, "I'm going to go to bed sober tonight."
Just don't drink today when it's next month, too.
Welcome.
Just don't drink today when it's next month, too.
Welcome.
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Join Date: Jan 2020
Location: Florida
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Viabeautywithin, it's great to have you with us and congratulations for taking this step.
After being dependent on alcohol for 27 years, I could only quit after i began addressing the anxiety, guilt, and resentment that had built up.
I also had to come to the realization that moderation is a myth for an alcoholic.
SR and the wonderful people here have been invaluable and I never would have had a chance without them.
After being dependent on alcohol for 27 years, I could only quit after i began addressing the anxiety, guilt, and resentment that had built up.
I also had to come to the realization that moderation is a myth for an alcoholic.
SR and the wonderful people here have been invaluable and I never would have had a chance without them.
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Join Date: Dec 2012
Location: Orcas Island, Washington
Posts: 9,068
Hello! I'm glad you've stopped drinking. I hope you work at making this a permanent sobriety. Support is essential to me. I get it from AA and this forum. Here is just one group's out of thousands on-line meetings (Pacific time, GMT -7h):
https://eastsideaa.org/meetings/?tsml-type=ONL
Here are some good threads to join:
https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...ml#post7490335 (24 Hour Recovery Connections Part 495)
https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...ml#post7489636 (Building our sober muscles this weekend - Weekenders 07-10 August 2020)
https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...ml#post7486643 (Class of August 2020 Part 1)
https://eastsideaa.org/meetings/?tsml-type=ONL
Here are some good threads to join:
https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...ml#post7490335 (24 Hour Recovery Connections Part 495)
https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...ml#post7489636 (Building our sober muscles this weekend - Weekenders 07-10 August 2020)
https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...ml#post7486643 (Class of August 2020 Part 1)
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I'm so glad you joined us! We all understand - and you're never alone. That meant so much to me when I first came here. I was able to quit a 30 yr. drinking habit and get free. We know you can too.
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hello viabeautywithin,
yes, wanting better was crucial for me, too. too often, i had resigned myself that the way i was drinking/living was “good enough”, which allowed me to keep drinking and not have to try for sobriety again after failing again.
so yeah, great to hear you want better!
yes, wanting better was crucial for me, too. too often, i had resigned myself that the way i was drinking/living was “good enough”, which allowed me to keep drinking and not have to try for sobriety again after failing again.
so yeah, great to hear you want better!
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Originally Posted by viabeautywithin 
I'm exhausted and can't battle the back in forth moderate (can't moderate) insanity of the last 19 years. I'm currently self-detoxing and stating days for me seems to be triggering.
I want better. I want life again. That has to outweigh the fleeting moments of "relaxation" or "fun" alcohol briefly provides before spiraling deeper into hell.
I've fought too hard for this current life I've been gifted, with unnumbered battles left to fight for my children's wellbeing,wishes and future.
Enough is now enough.
Hello
I want better. I want life again. That has to outweigh the fleeting moments of "relaxation" or "fun" alcohol briefly provides before spiraling deeper into hell.
I've fought too hard for this current life I've been gifted, with unnumbered battles left to fight for my children's wellbeing,wishes and future.
Enough is now enough.
Hello
Many of us find out that being an alcoholic is 10 times more work than being sober. Seriously.
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Join Date: Aug 2020
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Feel like I could have written this. I just posted for the first time about how I’ve been drinking on and off for twenty years. It’s exhausting. Im so down on myself right now for binge drinking last night and doing and saying things I didn’t mean to do. If I don’t stop now I risk losing everything that matters to me. I completely understand how you feel. Let’s do this together and take our lives back.
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