Jttx81

If you don't mind me asking, how did you finally get sober?

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HarvW

Did the “I’ll quit Monday “ thing thus weekend. Didn’t happen of course. I was on my eighth beer just after 12 noon. I have a kind of hide-out I can go to and drink alone and do business on the phone. Almost always make at least one stupid decision related to work. Then I drive my drunk ass home like an idiot. I can’t imagine the embarrassment I’d feel if I got a dui on a Monday at four pm. Obviously I shouldn’t d and d anytime and I rarely do after dark but somehow my drunk butt seems to think if it’s normal working hours I won’t get caught. I actually did change a tire on the highway once after like twelve beers. And a cop helped me. Stupid. I am so grateful nothing worse has happened and I know I must stop. I’m going to keep posting here today. I’ve dumped the beer I didn’t finish last night. I gotta do this.

sugarbear1

Are you drinking daily? If you are, seek medical help for a proper detox as this can be lethal.
If you aren't drinking daily, you have to figure out things to occupy your time with so you don't drink. You can do it, it takes a lot of willpower. Maybe find a program of recovery and work it like it's life or death!
Some programs of recovery include: Women/Men for Sobriety, Life Ring, SOS, AVRT, SMART, AA, Sober Recovery (here).
You can do this!

On The Road

Hey Harv

Hiding booze and day drinking are huge red flags. I hid so many bottles of vodka I forgot where I put them all.....which led to my undoing.

You gotta listen to that voice in your head that says it’s time to STOP. You know the one I’m talking about.

Make a commitment to yourself to go to be sober tonight. Then do it again tomorrow.

And I agree that you should look into detox options........

Dee74

Welcome back Harv
Sounds like things are barely manageable.
Got any ideas yet on how you'll stay sober?
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Sohard

I don't think you love being buzzed. It's not THAT amazing (and this is coming from a former alcoholic ). Likely, you love having your addiction satisfied, like a person in a desert that's been given a tall glass of ice water.
Harv, you know you want this. You wouldn't be here if you didn't want this. You want this, and you can do this. You've proven that. Throw EVERYTHING into doing this. Living life sober. I know you're thinking, but HOW?!? That it's so sad to never be able to drink again. That it's not fair. That it's too hard. That it isn't worth it. That it might affect your marriage. And on and on and on.
Stop thinking of reasons to to keep drinking, which is what all of that worrying is really about. Instead, think back to when you were a kid, I mean way before all your drinking started. Think of a day you had that was just terrific. Little League or 4th grade graduation or whatever. Now, you tell me, would that kid have had a better day if he had had 20 beers throughout the day? HELL NO. And you don't need those beers either. Your body does not need beer to enjoy life. Those childhood days prove that.
Your alcoholic brain is making you think you need beer, but you don't. Little Harv never had it and he got by just fine. In fact, think of sweet little Harv. Wouldn't it crush you if the adult you could have learned he grew up dependent on alcohol, like some kind of ghost of Christmas Future? Little Harv deserves better. Give it to him.
When you quit, it feels like you lost a limb. It is BIZARRE. That bizarre feeling does go away. It really does. You can do this. I know. I just posted in Newcomers as today is my 365 day. So trust me...I'm incredibly wise and experienced.