sweetichick

There is only one public detox centre in my city. If I had private health insurance all would change

Loveisallweneed

I hope you find the strength you need to quit! Brain damage is no laughing matter! I worry if it has effected your brain, what other damage it has done! Also in Ireland there is no way a doctor would allow you to detox at home! Do you live with family?

sweetichick

Thanks Sunshine for your hugs.

sweetichick

No I live alone. I am 50.

sweetichick

It's a common thing here. Some people have to taper with no help

Loveisallweneed

Is it benzodiazepines they detox you with?

sweetichick

Yes it is

Loveisallweneed

Is there family you could stay with or a friend that come stay with you while you detox? You definitely wouldn’t drink while taking benzodiazepine would you??

sweetichick

No I wouldn't. Last time I looked like I had been beaten up after I mixed them. Think I fell off the bed. I will try to stay with someone. Thanks for your help.

Loveisallweneed

Please do! It’s unsafe to do it on your own! Are you still drinking now? I hope you’re okay!

sweetichick

I am still drinking. Crying too. It's so great to talk about the problem. Just drinking very slowly.

sweetichick

At least I have a plan now

Berrybean

Sweetichick, could you call your sponsor and have her come over?

BB

Loveisallweneed

Please don’t cry.... if you need to talk, I will listen! Don’t think I’ll have much advice or answers (I’m only new to all this) but I will listen! All I ask is please don’t drive the car and keep yourself and others safe x

sweetichick

It is 9pm here. She goes to bed early. Good idea though.

Berrybean

Or someone else in the fellowship who has solid sobriety is she doesn't pick up.

BB

sweetichick

It's ok. Not planning on driving. I am not sure what the problem is except that I feel so alone. Lost in a big world with billions of people. I have spent way too much on alcohol. I have the money but it was designated for the house.

Loveisallweneed

Is there a local meet up you could join? Isolation is not nice if you’re feeling a little low! X

sweetichick

I will ring someone tomorrow. Try chilling out in front of TV then bed.

sweetichick

Thanks for everyone's help