Weekender 11-15 January, 2018–A Much Better Rush
I’m struggling a bit tonight. I had a very hard week at work. I had to cancel 3 operations due to the bed crisis on management orders and one woman (who I have only cancelled once, some people I have cancelled 3 or more times) was screaming at me on the phone for about 10 minutes. I told her it’s not my job to listen to this and I asked her if she wanted to make a complaint? She said she did so I transferred her call to the complaints department. I don’t know what they said to her but I did not hear back from her after that. I was actually a bit afraid and I had to leave my desk and go for a walk.
I had a nice weekend with my parents. My father was his usual self and my mother did not even annoy me too much.
I have been reading a book called “The Sober Diaries- How one woman stopped drinking and started living”. Some parts of it are harrowing but I went to Tesco with my dad this evening and the students are back in town as university starts back tomorrow. There were 2 young lads at the register in front of us and they bought 2 bottles of vodka, a 6 pack of Red Bull and a bottle of lemonade. At that second I thought I would love a glass of wine. I did not buy wine. I did end up buying 2 newspapers and a protein shake. Why I bought the shake I do not know. I have never had them before. I associate them with people prancing around the gym sipping protein shakes out of plastic beakers and it’s been years since I set foot in a gym. I have read that protein is good for stress so maybe that’s why I got it. I’m having green tea now.
My consultant is off for 3 Days next week because he is going skiing. I have also decided to take Wednesday, Thursday and Friday off because I need a break. I don’t have money to go skiing but I just need time off and I have annual leave to use up before April. So I’m in bed now and trying to breathe deeply.
Anyway I’m still around and I hope you are all keeping well.
I had a nice weekend with my parents. My father was his usual self and my mother did not even annoy me too much.
I have been reading a book called “The Sober Diaries- How one woman stopped drinking and started living”. Some parts of it are harrowing but I went to Tesco with my dad this evening and the students are back in town as university starts back tomorrow. There were 2 young lads at the register in front of us and they bought 2 bottles of vodka, a 6 pack of Red Bull and a bottle of lemonade. At that second I thought I would love a glass of wine. I did not buy wine. I did end up buying 2 newspapers and a protein shake. Why I bought the shake I do not know. I have never had them before. I associate them with people prancing around the gym sipping protein shakes out of plastic beakers and it’s been years since I set foot in a gym. I have read that protein is good for stress so maybe that’s why I got it. I’m having green tea now.
My consultant is off for 3 Days next week because he is going skiing. I have also decided to take Wednesday, Thursday and Friday off because I need a break. I don’t have money to go skiing but I just need time off and I have annual leave to use up before April. So I’m in bed now and trying to breathe deeply.
Anyway I’m still around and I hope you are all keeping well.
Actually I did tell my consultant about that lady and he said “I am sorry that I don’t have much advice for you but if I was in your shoes I would tell patients that your procedure is cancelled on management orders against my consultants wishes and my wishes”. I have started telling people that and it is helpful. I told someone “you have been cancelled due to the bed management crisis”. They said “what crisis is this? Is it something I should be aware of?” I was sitting there stunned with the phone up to me ear thinking “do you not read a paper or listen to the news?” It’s been on TV every single night. Anyway roll on my annual leave. I cannot wait for Tuesday night and a bit of sleep and time to myself.
Sending you love tetra....what you do is hard. You are dealing with people everyday when they are at their most frightened. I know how much that can take out of you. Sending so much love. ♥
I loved reading yourcpost Hawkeye. Congratulations on passing your first responders course! That is really fantastic and something you might not have been able to do if still drinking. We can do so many good things sober.
Sorry you are having a rough time at work Tetra, maybe you could talk to your counsellor, if you still see him/her, about emotional detachment, just a little not enough to turn you into an emotionless robot.
They are very upper class, I better get some Doritos in.
Sorry you are having a rough time at work Tetra, maybe you could talk to your counsellor, if you still see him/her, about emotional detachment, just a little not enough to turn you into an emotionless robot.
They are very upper class, I better get some Doritos in.
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