Healthy&sober former sober&healthy 90 meetings in 90 days accountability thread
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H&S -
It's really common to mourn the loss of alcohol for a while. I was really sad for a little while that I couldn't drink - then I was angry for a while. It pissed me off that other people could drink and I couldn't. But it got better and better. Just keep going to those meetings, and report back here. I love that you started this thread - it's good accountability for you, and it will inspire others! Don't quit before the miracle happens!
It's really common to mourn the loss of alcohol for a while. I was really sad for a little while that I couldn't drink - then I was angry for a while. It pissed me off that other people could drink and I couldn't. But it got better and better. Just keep going to those meetings, and report back here. I love that you started this thread - it's good accountability for you, and it will inspire others! Don't quit before the miracle happens!
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Thank you so much guys you guys keep me going
day 13 meeting 5, it was at a synagogue so beautiful so peaceful the lady who was the speaker was celebrating 30 years sobriety.
I struggle a lot keeping my commitment and going to this meetings everything is kind of falling apart around me and sometimes i just think well I'm not that bad everybody drinks i need to wind out and snap out of it with some wine.
well i was just thinking that at this meeting when this lady start talking about the things she used to do when she was drinking and i just said to myself omg that is something i would do or that is something i had done. so I'm not crazy or somehow insane i just really have issues with my behavior once alcohol is in my system.
yes it looks I'm an alcoholic sigh relief there are some people like me out there and they are okay maybe one day i will be too.
everybody was really nice i have some many phone numbers i am going to start a file cabinet
thank you for pushing me at day 13 my mind play tricks and i don't want to keep going but i really want to see if coming January 28 I'm still sober
i will be reading here for a while good night and thank you guys!
day 13 meeting 5, it was at a synagogue so beautiful so peaceful the lady who was the speaker was celebrating 30 years sobriety.
I struggle a lot keeping my commitment and going to this meetings everything is kind of falling apart around me and sometimes i just think well I'm not that bad everybody drinks i need to wind out and snap out of it with some wine.
well i was just thinking that at this meeting when this lady start talking about the things she used to do when she was drinking and i just said to myself omg that is something i would do or that is something i had done. so I'm not crazy or somehow insane i just really have issues with my behavior once alcohol is in my system.
yes it looks I'm an alcoholic sigh relief there are some people like me out there and they are okay maybe one day i will be too.
everybody was really nice i have some many phone numbers i am going to start a file cabinet
thank you for pushing me at day 13 my mind play tricks and i don't want to keep going but i really want to see if coming January 28 I'm still sober
i will be reading here for a while good night and thank you guys!
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thank you MLD51,
yes my emotions go from poor me, why me, this cannot be happening to me, to you are overreacting me, me ,me ,me
exhausting, i don't know if i will inspired anyone i usually end up ruining everything but this thread for sure make me accountable i want to get back to you guys report and not let anybody down and for once in my life go thru with something
yes my emotions go from poor me, why me, this cannot be happening to me, to you are overreacting me, me ,me ,me
exhausting, i don't know if i will inspired anyone i usually end up ruining everything but this thread for sure make me accountable i want to get back to you guys report and not let anybody down and for once in my life go thru with something
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Im always here Bimini i just hibernate during the weekend and didn't go to any meeting but I'm always here, the first thing i do in the mornings is drink my coffee with sober recovery :group hug:
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Thank you for checking!
i will update again after my meeting tonight. yes i will try weekend meetings instead of being lazy 
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It will always end up the same way for us when we drink, right, HAS? Surely we've all done enough experimenting on that, haven't we?
And all those people who can drink one or two and quit? They don't have the same inability to stop that we do. That won't change with 90 days sober time. Or with 18 years sober time. Ask me how I know...
(I just have seen you say a couple times that you are reserving or protecting the choice to drink again.) I had to say, "No more," and mean it - with no reservations. Did I want to drink after I had quit? Yes. Do I know how it would end if I did? Oh, yes.
And all those people who can drink one or two and quit? They don't have the same inability to stop that we do. That won't change with 90 days sober time. Or with 18 years sober time. Ask me how I know...
(I just have seen you say a couple times that you are reserving or protecting the choice to drink again.) I had to say, "No more," and mean it - with no reservations. Did I want to drink after I had quit? Yes. Do I know how it would end if I did? Oh, yes.
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Agree Bimini you are absolutely right. I need to work on this and it's not easy lol of course you know that too.😊
I need to put everything aside and make this the most important thing.thank you for the call out.
10 miles is awesome Hawkeyes
I can't wait for the day to me over I hate my job and according to some people and pretty back at it as well 😕
Anyways at least I still have a job I have enough on my plate right now to add up unemployment 😟
I need to put everything aside and make this the most important thing.thank you for the call out.
10 miles is awesome Hawkeyes
I can't wait for the day to me over I hate my job and according to some people and pretty back at it as well 😕
Anyways at least I still have a job I have enough on my plate right now to add up unemployment 😟
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The “never again!” thought really does die down the longer you stay sober.
For now when it pops into your mind, I recommend that you push it right back out and distract yourself with something else. Just worry about one day at a time, and always remind yourself of the joy and freedom of no longer having to dread total disaster day after day.
You’re doing great. Don’t let defeatist or discouraging thoughts creep in. You’re on a roll!
For now when it pops into your mind, I recommend that you push it right back out and distract yourself with something else. Just worry about one day at a time, and always remind yourself of the joy and freedom of no longer having to dread total disaster day after day.
You’re doing great. Don’t let defeatist or discouraging thoughts creep in. You’re on a roll!
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