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Old 06-18-2017, 10:36 AM
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Meltdown in the heat

I hit a situation I hadn't planned for. I was going dog walking with someone I had bad blood with when my husband died. I thought I'd put that in the past.
Anyhoo, I'd suggested we meet in this local pub and walk from there without thinking it's too hot to go walking. I was driving there and realised I'd been stupid because all I was thinking about was drinking a pint of wine to cope and relax.
I just screamed like a wild animal with frustration.
I've worked hard for 44 days to not go there.
Sponsor is out and the only meeting I can get to today is CA.
I feel really vulnerable.
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Old 06-18-2017, 10:38 AM
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Stay close to us, Weev.

You don't to go back.

Going back is hell on earth.

Hang tight to your 44 days and to your sobriety.
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Hang in there. Breathe, breathe, breathe.
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Old 06-18-2017, 10:53 AM
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You've got a whole team behind you. Don't reset the clock. Power through.
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Old 06-18-2017, 11:10 AM
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Think!!!! You know where a drink leads. It's not worth it. You've done so well . Keep posting we are here for you. Be strong
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Old 06-18-2017, 11:21 AM
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Weev you've come straight here which is exactly the right thing to do. This is my safe place.... let it be yours today. Whatever it takes please find a way to get to a safe place in your head. If you need to cancel meeting this "friend" then so be it. You can do it!!!!! Keep posting there are many people here who care about you ❤❤❤
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Old 06-18-2017, 11:27 AM
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Hang in there Weev, feelings are exactly that, we don't need to act upon them, and they also pass in time.

Hang out here on SR, stay distracted and stay focused on Day 45, you got this!!
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How is it going, Weev?
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Weev- You know what you need to do. Trust me, you do not want to wake up tomorrow and start all over again. Think it through.
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Just checking-in with you,,Weev.

Stay Strong.
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Weev, I'm glad you posted and I hope you got through the craving.
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Hi Weev, fingers crossed you made it through OK.
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Old 06-18-2017, 01:23 PM
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I'm here, sober, and just a bit jangly in my nerves. Boy, I appreciate all of you from the bottom of my heart.

Typical, that I thought about having a pint of wine. No glass for me. More like a bucket. Ugh!!!

Back from meeting complete with a 30 day keyring in a lovely white and electric blue. I am very very proud of it: it's on my keyring.

I needed reminding where I'd come from and tonight I got it. I've come a long, long way in 44 days and so have you lot. I just don't see it as the days go by. It's good to be alive and free.
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good on ya,weev! so, if/when this happens again a d your sponors isnt available, howz about using them other phone numbers ya have?
you just dont see it.....YET.
i see it- you posted before drinking,went to a meeting, and didnt drink.
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Great to hear you made it thru!!

By the way, you, Endoftheday and I are in a row, with you at 44,43 and 42 days sober I believe.

Let's keep the chain going. WE ARE RIGHT BEHIND YOU!!
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Yay, you did it and got yourself a 30 key ring, to boot!!

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Originally Posted by Weev1l View Post
I'm here, sober, and just a bit jangly in my nerves. Boy, I appreciate all of you from the bottom of my heart.

Typical, that I thought about having a pint of wine. No glass for me. More like a bucket. Ugh!!!

Back from meeting complete with a 30 day keyring in a lovely white and electric blue. I am very very proud of it: it's on my keyring.

I needed reminding where I'd come from and tonight I got it. I've come a long, long way in 44 days and so have you lot. I just don't see it as the days go by. It's good to be alive and free.
, Weev; so very happy for you!!!!!
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Old 06-18-2017, 01:51 PM
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Originally Posted by Tankersfull View Post
Great to hear you made it thru!!

By the way, you, Endoftheday and I are in a row, with you at 44,43 and 42 days sober I believe.

Let's keep the chain going. WE ARE RIGHT BEHIND YOU!!
Dear Tankersfull, I just made myself giggle thinking about going to the bar and ordering a tanker full of wine. Because that's what it would be, if I drank. There was never enough alcohol.

It's really nice we're in a row like that. I'm glad you're doing ok and I hope Endoftheday is too.
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Brilliant Weev I'm so relieved. Congrats on getting your keyring......first of many I hope ❤❤❤
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Originally Posted by tomsteve View Post
good on ya,weev! so, if/when this happens again a d your sponors isnt available, howz about using them other phone numbers ya have?
you just dont see it.....YET.
i see it- you posted before drinking,went to a meeting, and didnt drink.
Dearest tomsteve, I know I should be doing that. Grits teeth

I do have lots of numbers of people from meetings. But I just am not sure about calling when I'm in the bonkers like this afternoon. Perhaps I'll call a couple when I'm feeling a bit more normal?

Hope you and yours are ok? You've been a tower of strength to me.
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