Meltdown in the heat
I hit a situation I hadn't planned for. I was going dog walking with someone I had bad blood with when my husband died. I thought I'd put that in the past.
Anyhoo, I'd suggested we meet in this local pub and walk from there without thinking it's too hot to go walking. I was driving there and realised I'd been stupid because all I was thinking about was drinking a pint of wine to cope and relax.
I just screamed like a wild animal with frustration.
I've worked hard for 44 days to not go there.
Sponsor is out and the only meeting I can get to today is CA.
I feel really vulnerable.