Alone and scared, I don't want to drink anymore
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Join Date: Oct 2013
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Have a great weekend Lulu, you're doing great.
One of my tools of recovery. Which helped me enormously was to "play it forward". If I felt like a drink, I carried the thought in my mind to where I would eventually end up, embarrassed, hungover, regrets, usually big regrets. It certainly stopped me from picking up.
One of my tools of recovery. Which helped me enormously was to "play it forward". If I felt like a drink, I carried the thought in my mind to where I would eventually end up, embarrassed, hungover, regrets, usually big regrets. It certainly stopped me from picking up.
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Join Date: Apr 2017
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So uncomfortable with bloating! I'm pretty sure it's alcohol withdrawal. Stayed home today and spent several hours making split pea soup for tomorrow. Will go to the Cavern next weekend after I purchase all the required gear (knee pads, helmut, headlamp, etc). This bloating seems as if it is getting worse before it is going to get better. Lazy blob today....but another good day. It's so nice not to keep getting up for a shot of tequila and wincing as it goes down....and then later hearing the clinking of bottle against bottle in the trash can. Going to my friend's for Easter tomorrow, not sure if she will be drinking her wine. Doesn't matter, I am bringing seltzer water with limes. I'm good to go...
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This bloat is hanging on for dear life. Going to friends today for Easter...I think she is still a 2-bottle wine drinker (I don't ask). I'm not planning my day around drinking (that would mean taking 3 shots before I leave, taking 2 more when I arrive, cruise drink during the visit...and then DRIVE home. I cannot remember the last holiday being sober. Not wanting to even eat anything today I'm so bloated. Just drank a huge Vitamix of greens hoping it will rotor-root. Alcohol withdrawal symptom #3 for me - BLOOOOAAAAAT. Day 12...
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The stinky skin withdrawal symptom #2 is lingering. And when I wake up in the morning I feel super tired...as if it is midnight. Not a lot of energy still, but I'm going to push myself tomorrow for 30 minutes on the elliptical. Pretty much wiped out from all the years of drinking. Easter brunch with my friend was good and low-key. Wanted to go to the Botanical Gardens, but it got too late and was about to rain. Hitting the sack now....thanks and hope everyone had a nice day.
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Woke up with major anxiety...the kind that gives you pain in the stomach. Got out of bed quickly and most of it went away. Yesterday I felt good thinking about leaving for work today, and now I want to stay home and hide (although I know after I get to work it will be productive). The last dream before waking was being in love with this man who loved me and I could feel those feelings...and then I woke up alone in this place, which I think is fine with me for now. Maybe I am just sad. Finished my oatmeal, time to dress. Hope today brings joy to everyone. Why am I crying?
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Join Date: Mar 2017
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Good morningLuLu! The emotional swings happen to me sometimes too. Those can be tough moments,but they do pass. Stay with your routine and jump on the elliptical like you planned. There are some toxins that can only be sweated out. It will improve your mood greatly! This a sober day....that means it will be a good one! Blessings
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