Last Drink Oct 22nd
Last Drink Oct 22nd
Hi everyone, its been awhile since I have been on here, but be sure I have lurked a lot, just haven't felt ready to post. See, I have come and gone a lot from here. Most I usually had sober was less than a week.
Finally figured I could use the support and friendship of people like me. I don't know any alcoholics in my day to day life (well, any that I know of, I am sure there are people I know that are). As of today I have been sober 40 days. That feels like a long time to me, but I know its just the beginning. I certainly feel better both mentally and physically (except for being really tired and headachy a lot) but my mood swings are big and I now have to deal sober with a lot of the mental health issues I suffer from (mostly anxiety based).
Since quitting I have had to face two dinner parties at my house, a party out on the town last Saturday. Coming down the pipe I have a Christmas block party next Friday, a work party the weekend after, then Christmas Eve and Day. Whew. There was a party tonight I blew off. WHile I am absolutely confident I wouldn't drink, I also know its early enough days that such a decision would be hard, and I just didn't want a hard night tonite. ITs been a long week.
Anyway I am rambling, just wanted to say hi and post.
Finally figured I could use the support and friendship of people like me. I don't know any alcoholics in my day to day life (well, any that I know of, I am sure there are people I know that are). As of today I have been sober 40 days. That feels like a long time to me, but I know its just the beginning. I certainly feel better both mentally and physically (except for being really tired and headachy a lot) but my mood swings are big and I now have to deal sober with a lot of the mental health issues I suffer from (mostly anxiety based).
Since quitting I have had to face two dinner parties at my house, a party out on the town last Saturday. Coming down the pipe I have a Christmas block party next Friday, a work party the weekend after, then Christmas Eve and Day. Whew. There was a party tonight I blew off. WHile I am absolutely confident I wouldn't drink, I also know its early enough days that such a decision would be hard, and I just didn't want a hard night tonite. ITs been a long week.
Anyway I am rambling, just wanted to say hi and post.
My plan for those events this month is to drive (I haven't drank and driven in past and driving puts a responsibility on me that helps my mindset), and take my own. I can then leave earlier than my husband if I feel the heat. Other than that I am. It sure how to plan for them...
I am feeling really good and have no intention to break that again. That said I just want the holidays done
Welcome back Avra. We are at pretty much the same point - I am on day 45. Driving is a great excuse ("no thanks, I'm driving"). Sounds like you are doing a lot of similar things to me. I hope you keep posting
Avra- a good, sound plan How to deal with the guts of festive things? Just remember (for me) no booze, if I feel stress- walk away. The dangerous one is letting my guard down 'oh well it is xmas- 1 drink will not hurt'. Dangerous last words. Plus of course the obvious one- car plus alcohol equals bad things. If I was to drink and I had a car as transport- what would I do to stay safe? PJ
Avra- a good, sound plan How to deal with the guts of festive things? Just remember (for me) no booze, if I feel stress- walk away. The dangerous one is letting my guard down 'oh well it is xmas- 1 drink will not hurt'. Dangerous last words. Plus of course the obvious one- car plus alcohol equals bad things. If I was to drink and I had a car as transport- what would I do to stay safe? PJ
The other events I am not as stressed about because I don't foresee anyone making a big deal over me not drinking.
Today was a bad day, and I am feeling less positive about sobriety today than I have yet so far. I got in a fight with my daughter and a lot of feelings are coming up for me that I think existed before but that I would just drink away. I really need to work on my relationship with my daughter, I feel I have been emotionally absent as I have been a drunk her whole life (she is seven).
anyway, I am ranting now. Thanks for listening.
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Originally Posted by Avra
My Mother in law usually pushes the wine and in the past when I have quit she has always made it sound like its ruining the fun.
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Drinkers that try to get non-drinkers to drink irritate me.
If drinkers can't respect the fact that you do not want to drink, the hell with them. I understand it is tough when it is a family member but if they can't respect your right to say sober they are immature.
If drinkers can't respect the fact that you do not want to drink, the hell with them. I understand it is tough when it is a family member but if they can't respect your right to say sober they are immature.
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