Illusion of excitement
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Hi Rio, we could be twins regarding out drinking behavior. I'm too old to tear up the bars, so I sat home and drank and would find something to do, and enjoyed it. Then I didn't. And by the time I didn't, I wasn't interested in any hobbies or anything. Its an adjustment, and if you are like most, you recognize when its happening. I don't have much sober time under my belt, but enough to recognize that I don't obsess over weekend drinking, and I do things like go run errands with my wife. Which is something I would never do while doing my weekend drinking.
Lastly, your title says it all. Its an illusion of excitement. Its not genuine.
Lastly, your title says it all. Its an illusion of excitement. Its not genuine.
Thanks for sharing this, Rio97, I can really relate.
My period of heaviest drinking, like a lot of people, was in college - but it wasn't usually at parties. I'd drink alone while watching TV or listening to music, 6 or 7 days a week, homework left undone. Looking back, it wasn't actually "fun" but it was easy and distracting and that's what I was after. And it may have been fun for my AV but that's not the same thing as fun for ME. That's something I constantly have to remind myself of.
You're right - (re)discovering new hobbies and interests seems to be a big part of recovery. So far I've found it difficult and scary, and also really fun and exciting. Keep us updated on which interests you reconnect with or pursue!
My period of heaviest drinking, like a lot of people, was in college - but it wasn't usually at parties. I'd drink alone while watching TV or listening to music, 6 or 7 days a week, homework left undone. Looking back, it wasn't actually "fun" but it was easy and distracting and that's what I was after. And it may have been fun for my AV but that's not the same thing as fun for ME. That's something I constantly have to remind myself of.
I think another explanation is I just don't have as much interest in those things if I'm not drinking. It's amazing the hobbies and interests I've given up so I could just drink. Heck, for the longest time, a hobby just got in the way of my time to drink.
I look forward to maybe reconnecting with some of those old interests, or even pursuing some things I've never tried but always wanted to.
I look forward to maybe reconnecting with some of those old interests, or even pursuing some things I've never tried but always wanted to.
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