Soberpotamus

So you got the job?? Woohoo!!

Leshar

Wonderful news, MB, I'm very happy for you!

site1Q84

Congrats!

HeadLump

Brilliant, MB! And it sounds like a really interesting job too. Very, very well done, my pal xxx

MidnightBlue

Thanks for congrats, friends)

Though banks don't let me relax even on Saturday calling and reminding about overdue payment.

But the first step on the road to straightening out my finances is done.

trachemys

Comebacks are cool.

MidnightBlue

Hi, all.

Just got a call from the person who interviewed me on Friday.

They gave my job application and CV for consideration to the "Big-Super-Big" boss , and he requested detailed list of my works performed and another interview - now with him personally!

Please! I am not applying for CEO of multi-national company.

So, my new job is still pretty much in the air.

Not much choice for me but to focus on today and do the best I can.

Meanwhile, got another call from the bank, first thing in the morning. The clerk interrogated me when I will pay and where I will get money to pay.

I somehow managed to keep my cool.

Glad that I am sober. It's even hard to imagine how I would deal with all this having "Monday hangover". Probably, hiding under the blanket and crying.

Wish me luck, friends)

FreeOwl

Here's what you do..... Repeat after me;

'Everything is going to be awesome'

Then smile

Repeat as needed.



(It really is.....)

SereneEdition

Hi MB -

So glad to hear that you had a great Bday!!!!

A meeting with the CEO is good news. People only put a candidate they really want to hire in front of the CEO - their reputation and judgement is on the line if they waste their CEOs time.

CEOs generally interview for culture fit, not competence. This means that if you don't get the job, it's not a reflection on you or your talent, but that there is a good chance you'd be unhappy that the company.

Rooting for you!

MidnightBlue

Thank you for support, friends.

Feel really low now.

Just every day is like a war zone for me.

Chilledice

Keep your head held high soldier

Dee74

MB

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ccam1973

Hang in there Midnight. I have a feeling this job is going to be yours. Like other's have said you wouldn't have made to the CEO if you weren't qualified. Just be yourself and have confidence.

Remember, they will be a better company with you involved! Keep that confident and positive attitude with you and you'll do great. Company's want to hire people that will give it all they have with 100% dedication; kind of like what it takes to be sober!

You've got this!

MidnightBlue

Hi, friends.

Thank you again a lot for support and encouraging words.

So, I've just got a call and they arranged the interview with "bigger boss" (1st deputy of CEO, to be precise) for Monday morning.

Your advice has it all - keep my cool, be confident, be myself. I will do my best and let the Universe work the rest - I have faith that whatever outcome is, it will eventually turn out to be best for me.

Meanwhile I will need to keep my cool holding the line of banks calling and demanding when I am going to pay their money back.

One day at a time...

Thank you all!

ardy

Prayers Midnight from a billion Stars in the Sky.. you can do it kiddo. I know it. and you will too.. look yourself in the mirror and say I have the Support of the World around me I can do anything. big smile look them in the eye and lie like a rug. hahhaha had to do that last part.. as we say in entertainment get out there and do your stuff and "Break a Leg" hugs ardy./.

ardy

you get that job as a CEO could you use a good assistant . hahahahahaha would row over in a boat to help . hugs ardy..

MidnightBlue

I need a rant. Big time.

I am just losing it...sometimes it's too much.

Since I could afford only temporary fix of my wounded gum, it lasts only so much time.

A temporary crown just doesn't last long enough to protect my wounded gum which was cut open and still quite tender and vulnerable.
I need complete replacement of two adjacent teeth crowns which will cost me about $400-500 which I just don't have, and have no idea when I will have this amount of money again.

Food is constantly getting in between teeth again hurting wounded gum, which is again almost constantly bleeding.

And I am again in pain every day. And today this pain got acute at some point.

I've been suffering from this problem for 2+months already not being able to eat properly and I am just freaking tired to be in constant pain and not even knowing when it will end.

It feels just so humiliating to be in constant pain just because I have no money to fix it.

I am just so tired of it.

Today all of sudden I crashed emotionally, feeling I can't do it any more - banks, waiting for job interviews, with this nagging pain as a constant never ending background.

I cried so bitterly.

And I have this f****ing interview on Monday and I just don't want anything. I don't see the point. I am trying , but nothing seems to get better.

Sorry.

I am just no Ok. Nothing is Ok. Everything is screwed up in one way or another. And I have no power left to "man up" any more.

Soberpotamus

MB, is there any way you can get the dental work done and make payment arrangements? Like a small loan? Have you looked in CareCredit?

MidnightBlue

Thank you for stopping by, SJ.

But that's not an option for me - I am already late on all my credit cards and loan payments, with banks on my back. It's already in my credit records. and I doubt that I will get any other loan. And even if so, another debt will be just unbearable for me.

Soberpotamus

I'm so sorry you're in pain, MB. I know it can wear you down. I still want to encourage you to seek some help for this dental situation though, because it honestly sounds like an emergency sort of thing. There must be some way to get the work done and pay later? Just don't give up.