trachemys

MBlue, does me loving you help at all?

saoutchik

Midnightblue- have you tried going online to check out what is available where you live as an emergency procedure (ie you don't have to pay). It's not like your getting it done for cosmetic vanity. Hopefully you will get that job soon and be able to get it done properly

Dee74

I've heard that certain places in Europe are cheaper for dental work that others MB....if it's causing you this much pain, maybe it's worth looking into?

I know what it's like to be swamped in despair but don't let it take you down.

It took me a while to sort out my finances but I did in the end - you will too

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sugarbear1

You are still sober. You are amazing!!! Keep moving forward!!!

sending you love and hugs and healing white light.....

You are an inspiration to many!!!!!

MidnightBlue

Trach, it helps a lot)

Thank you again for support, friends.

It's Sunday and my cell phone is ringing off the hook - banks...

I don't feel well and not in the mood to talk to them, because every time it sucks out my energy.

I need to get ready for tomorrow's interview and can't focus on this...

trachemys

Hey, stand up.

Face the monsters

Tell them to take their best shot.

We got this.

exwell66

Fear is a mile wide,a mile high ,and paper thin.On the good side your not drinking.Things seem really bad for you right now,the the last thing you need to do is isolate yourself from whats going on around you.I could tell you take it one step at a time,start with your finances and so on sounds like you are already at least making that effort.Looks like your situation might be adding to your health issues,I think we underestimate how strong our mind can be.Try to look at as a moment mabey a long moment in time when things are awful,in the end things usually work out.My most recent health issue was a colostomy bag for 10 months among other health issues and not working for over a year.Now looking back its over for the most part and looking back I got thru it,and so will you.Try to slow down meditate exercise anything ....try not to let it consume you...easy for me to say......hope this didn't come across the wrong way...gl

Soberpotamus

You can also just shut off your phone for a while so you don't have to hear the annoying rings. I'd definitely shut it off in the hours leading up to your interview.

Hang in there, MB. Things can really turn around quick.

MidnightBlue

I finally took the call - about 10 minutes of moral pressure and asking me how much money I have on hands.

I said "None" and somehow kept my cool.

Took a walk after to shake off this "aftertaste" after the call. Dropped by a grocery store to buy some bananas and yougurt. Haven't been in this store for ages - used to be my "go -to-last-minute-buy-wine" place.

Turning down temptations to buy myself some sweets added a few scores to my crashing self-esteem . No sugar in my world.

Felt a little better on my way back.

Tired. Can't pull my thoughts together. Probably, the best thing will be to have a good refreshing sleep - my interview is at 9 a.m. tomorrow.

Wish me luck, friends!

HeadLump

Hi Midnight!

I'm sorry but I've only just caught up with this.

Turn off your phone, get some sleep and be the badass we all know you are at your interview tomorrow. You are the strongest person I know and you've got the whole of SR rooting for you - and, boy, can we root!

Dee74

Kick some butt MB

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MidnightBlue

Hi, friends.

Just back from the interview.

It took almost half an hour of waiting and 5 minutes of interviewing. He just asked me a couple of questions about my experience.

And that was it.

Not it will take about a month (!) to complete red-tape on all the checks, including medical examination (!).

So, I suppose I've done what was within my control, including 3 job interviews in less than 10 days, and will have to wait now.

Feel emotionally exhausted at the moment.

Have to regain my "badass spirit" quickly because banks are getting in line to explain what an irresponsible person I am being so late on payments; and that they won't trust me any more; and so on and so far.

Thank you a loooooot for support, friends!

American SR pals - enjoy your long weekend)

Dee74

I hope you'll get some rewards from this MB

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trachemys

YaY, MBlue. Sounds like a good day. Tell the banks to pound sand.

MidnightBlue

I would looove to say so)

Jeni26

Hey beautiful...I know you have got what it takes to get through this. you have faced many many things in your life and walked through them, and this will be no different.

I do not doubt you one little bit.

Go get 'em

Xxxxxx

HeadLump

Sounds really good, Midnight. I'm so pleased for you, my pal

It's a long weekend here in the UK too - lovely!

trachemys

Hey, all you gotta do is delay the dolts a while. Get inventive. Have fun with it. "When the mothership arrives, we'll all have excess money so relax." I flumoxed collectors with total BS many times.

MidnightBlue

Thank you again, and again, and again, friends.

Seriously, I have no idea how I would go through all this without your support and useful up-to-the-point advice.

I have still another question though (among lots of others) - why is it so hard for me to stop beating myself up?

I made it through 3 quite challenging job interviews, kept my cool. And still look at this like "Oh, no big deal". What if you were already free of debt and other issues, and preferably a CEO of multi-national corporation, that's another story. Then you would have a right to say "Good for you".

Along with all other issues I am exhausting myself with being "not efficient enough".

Any ideas how to cut myself some slack?)))

silentrun

For me it was drilled into my head over and over that I was not good enough. Even just the thought that I was capable was demonic and arrogant. I eventually believed it. Are you running some internal dialogue that tells you that you are not?