I am drunk, very drunk, I just want to stoo
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I am drunk, very drunk, I just want to stoo
Drunk, I am screwing up my life, I can't stop, this feeling is good ,but tomorow the regret sets it, I want to be normal, but not normal now.
I don't know why I do this, it feels good ,but can't lie it isn't good its the end of the earth, oh, why me, restart the clock TDG has fallen off again, a drunken dummy as always.
I can't even save me, but I want my life back, yeah right never!
I don't know why I do this, it feels good ,but can't lie it isn't good its the end of the earth, oh, why me, restart the clock TDG has fallen off again, a drunken dummy as always.
I can't even save me, but I want my life back, yeah right never!
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Get rid of what you have and get some rest TDG. You'll regret this in the morning and need the strength. Dump it out, get some water and make sure your meds are in line tomorrow morning.
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I agree you're not a dummy.
It was very hard for me to give up the tight control I had on all areas on my life.
It might sounds bizarre for an alcoholic to say that but even my drinking (and how out of control it got) was connected to my control issues.
Drinking was my only respite from the endless relentless pressure of being me - but drinking was also stopping me from being the whole me I could be (not to mention killing me slowly)
In recovery, I realised that the vast majority of the pressure I felt came from me - noone else.
You have some tough decisions to make Jeremy, and some hard orders/directives to follow from other people if you want to be all you can be, and get your life back.
It's going to be way WAY easier to do what you need to sober, man.
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It was very hard for me to give up the tight control I had on all areas on my life.
It might sounds bizarre for an alcoholic to say that but even my drinking (and how out of control it got) was connected to my control issues.
Drinking was my only respite from the endless relentless pressure of being me - but drinking was also stopping me from being the whole me I could be (not to mention killing me slowly)
In recovery, I realised that the vast majority of the pressure I felt came from me - noone else.
You have some tough decisions to make Jeremy, and some hard orders/directives to follow from other people if you want to be all you can be, and get your life back.
It's going to be way WAY easier to do what you need to sober, man.
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Jeremy I hope you are safely asleep and that you drink plenty of water slowly when you wake.
This. When I drank my mind was a turmoil about my life, other people, situations, what may or may not happen. The biggest thing -- besides my return to vigorous health -- is the peace I feel. When I drank I created pressure and turmoil on myself and others. Now that I'm sober I can think through things and work them out.
TDG this isn't working on your own, you need support like we all do. What about rehab, you got the offer and I'm sure you can still take it up. Do it for yourself.
Originally Posted by Dee74 
In recovery, I realised that the vast majority of the pressure I felt came from me - noone else.
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TDG this isn't working on your own, you need support like we all do. What about rehab, you got the offer and I'm sure you can still take it up. Do it for yourself.
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TDG. Dee said it all. please take it on board. There is hope, so much hope for you.
I identify with your drunken ramblings, I've done a lot of those myself, but they do not and will not ever get you anywhere or ever make you feel better.
Hope you are ok today .
I identify with your drunken ramblings, I've done a lot of those myself, but they do not and will not ever get you anywhere or ever make you feel better.
Hope you are ok today .
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You need more help than you can get here. You know what you need to do but you keep refusing to do it. You need to stop making excuses and go to rehab. I hate to sound harsh but there it is. If you don't do it, you will just continue on this merry go round.
I am rooting for you but until you are really ready to get sober and do whatever it takes to do so, you will continue to feel this way.
I am rooting for you but until you are really ready to get sober and do whatever it takes to do so, you will continue to feel this way.
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Blurry eyed and embarrassed, sobering up now, its about 5 am , but I slept well from passing out. SHeesh, I don't know what to say or do anymore. I think I need help, lots of help, but I always refuse help. I am not normal, I don't understand me, I really don't.
I go off my meds and start drinking and craziness happens, I am sad, confused, and stupid. Sorry friends, don't mind me!
I go off my meds and start drinking and craziness happens, I am sad, confused, and stupid. Sorry friends, don't mind me!
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