I am drunk, very drunk, I just want to stoo
 

Drunk, I am screwing up my life, I can't stop, this feeling is good ,but tomorow the regret sets it, I want to be normal, but not normal now.

I don't know why I do this, it feels good ,but can't lie it isn't good its the end of the earth, oh, why me, restart the clock TDG has fallen off again, a drunken dummy as always.

I can't even save me, but I want my life back, yeah right never!

Get rid of what you have and get some rest TDG. You'll regret this in the morning and need the strength. Dump it out, get some water and make sure your meds are in line tomorrow morning.

Agree Scott. Hang in there bro... now that the housing situation is stable and the treatment options are open... start looking at the treatment options... we are here for you....

Do what Scott says.

Dump the rest out TDG & get some sleep - check in here in the am - we will be here to support you.

Don't drink, go to meetings ... the rest will follow. There is a solution ...

You're not a dummy TDG. You just need help. Help is there. You just got to reach out for it.

I agree you're not a dummy.

It was very hard for me to give up the tight control I had on all areas on my life.

It might sounds bizarre for an alcoholic to say that but even my drinking (and how out of control it got) was connected to my control issues.

Drinking was my only respite from the endless relentless pressure of being me - but drinking was also stopping me from being the whole me I could be (not to mention killing me slowly)

In recovery, I realised that the vast majority of the pressure I felt came from me - noone else.

You have some tough decisions to make Jeremy, and some hard orders/directives to follow from other people if you want to be all you can be, and get your life back.

It's going to be way WAY easier to do what you need to sober, man.

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Jeremy I hope you are safely asleep and that you drink plenty of water slowly when you wake.

This. When I drank my mind was a turmoil about my life, other people, situations, what may or may not happen. The biggest thing -- besides my return to vigorous health -- is the peace I feel. When I drank I created pressure and turmoil on myself and others. Now that I'm sober I can think through things and work them out.

TDG this isn't working on your own, you need support like we all do. What about rehab, you got the offer and I'm sure you can still take it up. Do it for yourself.

Drinking and truly living were mutually exclusive for me.

"The good feeling" never really lasted much beyond the first 45 minutes

Please check in later and let us know how you are doing.

Hope you're ok tdg.
Get some sleep. We're all here for you. Hugs xx

J pls seek help

Maybe it's time to go for that rehab. You need some help, doing it on your own isn't getting it done.

TDG. Dee said it all. please take it on board. There is hope, so much hope for you.

I identify with your drunken ramblings, I've done a lot of those myself, but they do not and will not ever get you anywhere or ever make you feel better.

Hope you are ok today .

Thinking of you and hoping today is much better.

You need more help than you can get here. You know what you need to do but you keep refusing to do it. You need to stop making excuses and go to rehab. I hate to sound harsh but there it is. If you don't do it, you will just continue on this merry go round.

I am rooting for you but until you are really ready to get sober and do whatever it takes to do so, you will continue to feel this way.

Blurry eyed and embarrassed, sobering up now, its about 5 am , but I slept well from passing out. SHeesh, I don't know what to say or do anymore. I think I need help, lots of help, but I always refuse help. I am not normal, I don't understand me, I really don't.

I go off my meds and start drinking and craziness happens, I am sad, confused, and stupid. Sorry friends, don't mind me!

can ya get to rehab? stop wasting time drinking and start investing in sobriety now?

with hugs and love to you

there is no "think" you need help TDG. You DO need help.
Where are you at with the rehab options?
You really really need to make some tough choices here. You can do it!