An ultimatum
It could be he doesn't understand and also rather than saying no for a forth time just say you need some breathing space and that you'll be in touch when you feel ready
Could be he is over worried but he's sounding a bit persistent and if its making you feel this way tell him so
Youl soon see if his motives are true
Good luck BTW avice and well done on your journey to finding a better you
Keep posting
Could be he is over worried but he's sounding a bit persistent and if its making you feel this way tell him so
Youl soon see if his motives are true
Good luck BTW avice and well done on your journey to finding a better you
Keep posting
That's a very strange development indeed. Avice, we don't know your relationship but it doesn't sound like this is what you need at the moment. Definitely NO to BBQs, listen to your heart and be kind to and nurture yourself. Keep posting.
Well, since I last posted he's suggested an alternative. A pizza place. He just wants to see me...I think. I'll find out what kind of relationship this is tonight.
Man, before it was just me and my booze. I'm not used to having people noticing or being concerned. This is weird for me. Very weird.
Man, before it was just me and my booze. I'm not used to having people noticing or being concerned. This is weird for me. Very weird.
I don't know what's going on here. He's saying that he doesn't want me to be alone. I keep declining his invitation (3 times now), and every time he comes back with a more attractive offer - basically just promising that he'll be nice to me...we can have fun...etc. Honestly, I feel like I could cry my eyes out all night (again) and I am SO confused. I don't know what his motivations are. Could it be that he just doesn't understand or could it be a weird form of control?
Well, I'm about to go see him, Scott. I realize what you're saying, but I need to find out for myself whether this guy has my best interests at heart.
I can't just cut him off or block his number right off the bat. He's done a lot for me. But...tonight will determine whether he really wants me to get better.
I feel like I have enough strength to see the real answer - whatever it may be.
I can't just cut him off or block his number right off the bat. He's done a lot for me. But...tonight will determine whether he really wants me to get better.
I feel like I have enough strength to see the real answer - whatever it may be.
Well, I'm back now and I'm glad I went. He may be a bit clumsy in dealing with this issue, but he told me that he doesn't want to control my drinking. I am free to drink as much as I want, or none at all. He also told me that when I do quit drinking, he'll clear every bit of alcohol out of his apartment. No beer in the fridge - no wine in the cupboard. He's one of those guys that can have one or two glasses of wine and then stop...man, I wish.
We went for a walk to the park and I explained to him that I really do need a week to recover from the initial withdrawal symptoms. He seemed to understand that. To be honest, I think he might have talked to someone about this, because his attitude had changed completely. He apologized for getting angry with me.
I had to leave soon after that because nausea started to hit me (you know how it is). It'll be worse tomorrow.
But...on September 1st I plan to join the Class of September 2014.
Things are really messed up in my head at the moment, but time will tell whether I can deal with this or not. Wish me luck. Send prayers or vibes or whatever. I can't lose any more friends or opportunities or just little bits of life. I'm sick to death of this thing.
We went for a walk to the park and I explained to him that I really do need a week to recover from the initial withdrawal symptoms. He seemed to understand that. To be honest, I think he might have talked to someone about this, because his attitude had changed completely. He apologized for getting angry with me.
I had to leave soon after that because nausea started to hit me (you know how it is). It'll be worse tomorrow.
But...on September 1st I plan to join the Class of September 2014.
Things are really messed up in my head at the moment, but time will tell whether I can deal with this or not. Wish me luck. Send prayers or vibes or whatever. I can't lose any more friends or opportunities or just little bits of life. I'm sick to death of this thing.
It sounds like your friend is very frustrated with your drinking. It's wise not to make any promises you may break as that would hurt even more. I would say maybe this would be a time to take a break from each other so you can focus on your own recovery without feeling pressured if that is how it made you feel.
hmmm......nice boy meets nice girl who drinks too much.....
Careful, please!
At 86 days sober, I hold no corner on wisdom. In terms of the drink I will share what worked for me to this point.
Total and complete surrender / willingness to sobriety. Meetings - Lot's and lot's and lot's of meetings = AA.
Tried the following over many years of drinking: Only drink beer, wine, under 80 proof, alcohol I did not like, really expensive booze, really cheap booze, only buy a pint, only buy two pints, only drink on weekends, only drink on Friday, only drink to celebrate, only drink when feeling bad, only drink.....well, everyday.
Took Antabuse, wellbutrin etc. Put pictures of my loved ones close by so maybe that would arrest my obsession........
Then, Ah- Ha! Finally I learned I have an obsession of the mind. When I take one drink I (alcoholics) get a physical(Body) craving that does not stop. I now desire sobriety more than anything else - I became WILLLING to ask for help and gain tools(spirit) to get and keep me sober - based on this, I get a one day at a time reprieve from the obsession at this point.
Things are still changing in my short term sobriety for the good. I jealousy protect that TODAY and refuse to give it up for anything or anyone......
You have to ask yourself one question only.....
Want some????
Careful, please!
At 86 days sober, I hold no corner on wisdom. In terms of the drink I will share what worked for me to this point.
Total and complete surrender / willingness to sobriety. Meetings - Lot's and lot's and lot's of meetings = AA.
Tried the following over many years of drinking: Only drink beer, wine, under 80 proof, alcohol I did not like, really expensive booze, really cheap booze, only buy a pint, only buy two pints, only drink on weekends, only drink on Friday, only drink to celebrate, only drink when feeling bad, only drink.....well, everyday.
Took Antabuse, wellbutrin etc. Put pictures of my loved ones close by so maybe that would arrest my obsession........
Then, Ah- Ha! Finally I learned I have an obsession of the mind. When I take one drink I (alcoholics) get a physical(Body) craving that does not stop. I now desire sobriety more than anything else - I became WILLLING to ask for help and gain tools(spirit) to get and keep me sober - based on this, I get a one day at a time reprieve from the obsession at this point.
Things are still changing in my short term sobriety for the good. I jealousy protect that TODAY and refuse to give it up for anything or anyone......
You have to ask yourself one question only.....
Want some????
I've made him promise not to see me for a week. We have been communicating through email, but I did screw up...I wrote about it in my latest thread aptly titled I Screwed Up.
I don't want to hurt people in my life anymore. If I have to fake it til I make it, that's OK. He's never been through this stuff and you guys have. I'm sure that plenty of people have screwed up and regretted it. It sure isn't an easy thing to deal with.
He has very little idea of what's actually been going on with me, and that's the way I want to keep it for now. I only want to be around him when I can be the friend that he deserves.
I don't want to hurt people in my life anymore. If I have to fake it til I make it, that's OK. He's never been through this stuff and you guys have. I'm sure that plenty of people have screwed up and regretted it. It sure isn't an easy thing to deal with.
He has very little idea of what's actually been going on with me, and that's the way I want to keep it for now. I only want to be around him when I can be the friend that he deserves.
Flynbuy. I don't think you have an accurate picture of me. Nice guy meets nice girl who drinks too much? No. Two people with their own set of problems. I don't like painting things in black and white.
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The times I could muster all my will power and go to bed after only 6-7 drinks, I would literally
Open my eyes that morning and my first thought would be "drink "
Then I'd spend that day trying to mentally push that thought out, but I'd cave within a day or two and then drink till I passed out again.
What i eventually did was begin to think what is the point, if I don't finish the job, I'm just going to eventually and so I finished the job each night.
That was when things got really bad, both mentally, physically and not to mention, financially.
Won't ever bother you again......
peace
whalebelow. I've been an 'alone drinker' for quite a while. I had alcoholic friends and friends that drank normally. I screwed up a lot of relationships with people that weren't on my hellbent quest to get drunk. I still wonder what kind of relationships I may have missed out on.
Flynbuy. Just because I disagree with you on one point doesn't mean you shouldn't talk to me again. I didn't mean it that way.
Flynbuy. Just because I disagree with you on one point doesn't mean you shouldn't talk to me again. I didn't mean it that way.
whalebelow. I've been an 'alone drinker' for quite a while. I had alcoholic friends and friends that drank normally. I screwed up a lot of relationships with people that weren't on my hellbent quest to get drunk. I still wonder what kind of relationships I may have missed out on.
Flynbuy. Just because I disagree with you on one point doesn't mean you shouldn't talk to me again. I didn't mean it that way.
Flynbuy. Just because I disagree with you on one point doesn't mean you shouldn't talk to me again. I didn't mean it that way.
peace
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