Relapse well ok
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Originally Posted by Raider 
All I want to do now is cry. ****. How stupid. And this drug makes me sleepy, tired and sad. Goodnight.
Take care, my friend
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Originally Posted by Raider
Took a Xanax I'm gone
Please be safe and give that little fuzz a big hug. That's the beauty of our furry friends, they love us no matter what.
I'll pray you make it back here safely I am just very sad that you listened to that freaking AV
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Hey Raider
I am sorry to hear about your relapse. Perhaps projecting about the future was making it tough on you. Thinking too far into the future always terrifies me ! I have learnt not to do that anymore but it took a while to make it a habit. Anyway, rest up and get well. Taking time away may actually be a good thing as one can do some self-reflection. Whether you wish to post here or not, that is your choice. My wish is that you discover a path towards sobriety, serenity, well being and inner peace. Follow that path.
I am sorry to hear about your relapse. Perhaps projecting about the future was making it tough on you. Thinking too far into the future always terrifies me ! I have learnt not to do that anymore but it took a while to make it a habit. Anyway, rest up and get well. Taking time away may actually be a good thing as one can do some self-reflection. Whether you wish to post here or not, that is your choice. My wish is that you discover a path towards sobriety, serenity, well being and inner peace. Follow that path.
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I hope when you wake up you come back and read these posts Pam. I did the same as you...had a relapse and downed vodka and diazepam in one sitting. I realise now how lucky I was to have made it back at all. At the time...it made complete sense.
You are the one writing your story...there isn't anything written you can't change.
Who says you won't have a single night of drinking? Who says you won't get back here for a month?
Re-write the script Pam...I hear the more often we relapse and the longer we stay out there, the harder it is to get back. And mixing drink and drugs is a dangerous potentially fatal path.
Please be safe
You are the one writing your story...there isn't anything written you can't change.
Who says you won't have a single night of drinking? Who says you won't get back here for a month?
Re-write the script Pam...I hear the more often we relapse and the longer we stay out there, the harder it is to get back. And mixing drink and drugs is a dangerous potentially fatal path.
Please be safe
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Hi Raider....yeah, I was worried you were feeling like being sober hadn't improved some things for you when you started your thread the other week.
I'm sorry to see you have had a drink. But in another way, I'm glad to hear you say it wasn't that great.
I think when we finally see the lure isn't there - it's our mind playing tricks, we become ready to let go. Maybe you aren't there yet, but I hope one day you will be.
Be well.xx
I'm sorry to see you have had a drink. But in another way, I'm glad to hear you say it wasn't that great.
I think when we finally see the lure isn't there - it's our mind playing tricks, we become ready to let go. Maybe you aren't there yet, but I hope one day you will be.
Be well.xx
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There is soooo much love for you here sister. As you see...
You've been struggling here for a bit..pretty much since I returned.
I was so damn impressed at your sober time...the difference I saw in your voice...how much stronger it was when I first cyber-met ya.
I was worried for you because ...your pretty much at the same place I was when I went back out...
The addiction has been gaining speed and comin' right at ya for awhile. I remember my old therapist talking about the path of addiction... how at times they start build steam...pressure builds and there are points that you can diffuse...but if you don't...
WHAM. Relapse is inevitable.
There is much love for you here Pam. Don't throw it away my friend. Don't sink back into yourself and get lost...
Come back soon...like tomorrow.
You've been struggling here for a bit..pretty much since I returned.
I was so damn impressed at your sober time...the difference I saw in your voice...how much stronger it was when I first cyber-met ya.
I was worried for you because ...your pretty much at the same place I was when I went back out...
The addiction has been gaining speed and comin' right at ya for awhile. I remember my old therapist talking about the path of addiction... how at times they start build steam...pressure builds and there are points that you can diffuse...but if you don't...
WHAM. Relapse is inevitable.
There is much love for you here Pam. Don't throw it away my friend. Don't sink back into yourself and get lost...
Come back soon...like tomorrow.
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