Hi Raider....yeah, I was worried you were feeling like being sober hadn't improved some things for you when you started your thread the other week.
I'm sorry to see you have had a drink. But in another way, I'm glad to hear you say it wasn't that great.
I think when we finally see the lure isn't there - it's our mind playing tricks, we become ready to let go. Maybe you aren't there yet, but I hope one day you will be.
Be well.xx
