I'm an alcoholic.
Its a cold and its a broken hallelujah.
Join Date: Aug 2011
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DJ - you are brave and courageous beyond measure. What you did by telling your parents was a leap of faith and a huge step in saving yourself. You should be so proud of you.
You can do this. We will help.
Be well dear one.
You can do this. We will help.
Be well dear one.
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Join Date: Jan 2014
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Thank you all
Thank you all for your kind words. Its been 16 hours since I had a drink. Waves of anxiety and panic have flown over me all day, but in the grand scheme of things its a good sign. No tremors, no uncontrollable shaking, I can still think and type clearly, and have not thrown up at all today (sorry to be so graphic, but things like this arent pretty). Alcohol withdrawl can be a very serious thing, but often times the worst cases come on after just a few hours. Every hour I can make is a positive sign.
I have not slept for 20 hours now, and have a headache which is caused by my strained eyes (eye close them, it goes away- see what I did there!). Havent eaten much, but did not want to flood my injured stomach with too much yet. My goal is to increase it again tomorrow.
I will keep posting on this as as I go through it. For those of you that are religious, I would appreciate your prayers. Even though it may not be appropriate to ask for prayers for yourself!
I have not slept for 20 hours now, and have a headache which is caused by my strained eyes (eye close them, it goes away- see what I did there!). Havent eaten much, but did not want to flood my injured stomach with too much yet. My goal is to increase it again tomorrow.
I will keep posting on this as as I go through it. For those of you that are religious, I would appreciate your prayers. Even though it may not be appropriate to ask for prayers for yourself!
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Join Date: Jan 2014
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Hi DJ. I'm new here too, so I don't have much to offer. But I wanted to say I think its great that you asked for help, what a huge step! And I also wanted to say that you are not alone in this fight. Try to rest, try to eat, and hang in there.
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Join Date: Jan 2014
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Hi DJ I just read your posts and my heart went out to you. You are so brave. just take life minute by minute, step by step for the time being until you start to heal. I am not a religious but a spiritual soul so I am sending you all my positive and healing thoughts. Rest, and let us know how you are x
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Welcome, DJ! Telling people in my real life about my problem was the thing that made the difference for me, and I hope it will work the same way for you. I'm looking forward to hearing more from you.
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hope you're doing well dj.... if you're open to it and you can, I encourage you to get to an AA meeting.
Having community and face-to-face, understanding support is a huge help.
There's nothing to lose, and your life to gain.
We'll be here, too.
Having community and face-to-face, understanding support is a huge help.
There's nothing to lose, and your life to gain.
We'll be here, too.
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Join Date: Jan 2014
Location: California
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Welome, DJ. When I finally decided to get help for myself I needed to tell my parents and go to the hospital, too. Don't worry about being too graphic... I think we've all been there where we see our bodies giving us signs that we're killing ourselves. They're part of the wake up call themselves. While I've slipped up since that big detox, having asked for real help and officially not wanting to drink anymore was a huge turning point in my life and it sounds like it could be one for you, too.
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Join Date: Apr 2013
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Originally Posted by djfisher34 
As I sit here, I have alcohol in my system, that I have consumed to eliminate the shakes I had from the fifth that I drank yesterday. I am slated to be at work in an hour, but have called in as I am in no position to work. Not good, I know. I called in yesterday as well, and have way too many times to count over the past 6 years.
life as you wish to know it is slipping away
I have seen many of my friends at work in this same condition
things really went downhill fast once they were fired from their jobs
hold on while you still have something to hold on to
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Thanks again all. Last night was a rough night. I got a couple of hours of sleep (if even that). When I closed my eyes I saw things that made no sense, people I didnt even know, etc. When I opened my eyes it went away. Whenever I felt close to sleep, I would have a single jerk that stopped that progress. Was not a seizure, I have seen those before. This went on for hours. When I calmed myself and focused the jerks would not happen, but my mind was racing nonetheless. I did not give in. It has been 25 hours since my last drink, and am not doing too bad right now. What a rough night... but I got through it.
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one becomes very grateful
Originally Posted by djfisher34
It has been 25 hours since my last drink, and am not doing too bad right now. What a rough night... but I got through it.
you may be over the worse of it if you don't pick up another drink
if you are a drunk such as I was and we live long enough
one becomes very grateful once they get a taste of sobriety
the war is over
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Sending prayers your way. I know it's hard but keep pushing through. You can do this. I admire you for reaching out to your parents, as a mom that really touched me. It will get easier, keep asking for and taking whatever help you can. Be well.
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