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Old 02-02-2014, 11:57 AM
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Congratulations on getting through the first 25 hours.
Hope you're doing okay, and tonite brings you more rest.
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Old 02-02-2014, 08:34 PM
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Back again...

And on hour 38 and counting. I was able to sleep for about an hour after a rough day at work. As i type this I work in 8 hours, and know that sleep can not be attempted for at least 3 more. If I can get at least 3 hours, Ill consider that a bonus.

Hour 48 comes at 8am. That will be a huge milestone for me, especially considering the 3-4 day bender that I just came off of. I have a doctor appointment at 8:30 with my new doctor, to meet with me about an approach to my anxiety and panic, and hopefully help me to get some sleep. Then back to work I will go, to suffer through the remaining 8 hours of my shift.

One additional bonus, I was able to eat a full meal tonight, for the first time since Tuesday.

I will get through this. I will never go through this again.

Thanks for listening, as always!
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Off to bed I go, wish me luck on more of a productive (and less terrifying) evening. Take care all
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Old 02-02-2014, 11:10 PM
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Djfisher34- wow! You are so brave. Just read all the previous posts, so glad you told your parents. I'm praying for you to get through this. It is not easy but just like you said, when you get through this, it will be the last time you'll have to do it. My thoughts and prayers are with you.
My anxiety and panic was through the roof when I stopped using and drinking. When I look back I can see the huge progress I've made. It gets so much better, hang in there
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Old 02-03-2014, 01:09 AM
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Your doing great DJ, the first week is the hardest, but after a few days sleeping gets easier. I am on day ten, and my dreams are still vivid and off the wall like you mentioned. I am Sure that it passes in Time too, though. You are making a very wise decision, keep it up and don't give in.
One day at a time. Once you feel a little better I recommend AA as a good starting point. Best wishes.
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Old 02-03-2014, 02:56 AM
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hey there DJ.... just a quick hello to say congratulations you're still going strong and taking action!

Action in sobriety is key.

I'm off to an AA meeting this morning - Day 37. I'm grateful to be sober and wish you strength and continued growth and progress.

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Old 02-03-2014, 05:42 PM
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Hey all. Hour 60 now. Had my appt this morning, start my new anxiety/panic treatments tomorrow. Made it through my work day, but it was really tough. My skin kept turning bright red off and on, and it feels like I have a vice-grip on my temples squeezing tighter and tighter by the hour. I am sure this is as a result of my lack of sleep and high anxiety levels.

Doesnt matter, I will not cave. I will never go through this again!
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Hey DJFisher34... I'm new to this forum too. You've made the big step of telling your family and likewise us, through this forum. I know that when I did the same last week, I felt a huge sense of relief. However, once that relief was over; I knew I was on the path of trying to sort myself out for good. There is no doubting this will be tough. I've relapsed once since posting on here and could kick myself for it. You can do it though... you have to do this... life is too short. I'm looking forward to posting on this forum in 6 months and confirming that I am in a totally different place... it would be great and very encouraging to see that you're in a better place at the same time too. I wish you every success with sorting yourself out dude.
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Hour 72. A huge milestone in the quitting world, as most of the horrible withdrawl symptoms will have occurred by this point. Got 5 hours of sleep last night, which is a lot for me. And, no vivid dreams or visions either! A good thing. The only symptom I have as I type this is that I have a lot of pressure on the right side of my temple, which has been very common since this began. If it gets too bad at work, I will just take a cold rag, lay down, and cover my eyes with it. It helps.

Off to get ready. Thanks for listening, as always... it is just nice to be able to update my progress, and get my feelings out there. Maybe, in some strange way, they will help someone else some day.
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Your posts already ARE helpful to us, dj. We are all struggling, in differing degrees, to hold on to our sobriety. Seeing you grind it out, at this early and difficult stage, is inspiring. It really is. Keep it up. We are pulling for you.
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Been over 85 hours. Another rough day at work, but nothing I cant handle. I get a little stronger by the day!
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And by the way, in case anyone is wondering... all is good at my job now, even with me missing 4 days last week for my moronic bender. Only positive thing from it is that it was the straw that broke the camels back for me
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Keep going dj. You can do this.
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Old 02-05-2014, 05:30 AM
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Keep it going djfisher... you can beat this.
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96 hours, and off to work I go
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I don't know what your employer is like but a lot of employers will help with treatment if you come to them and are honest. I lost a job in 2003 because my drinking became so bad that I couldn't go for more than a few hours without shaking violently. I began bringing a 5th of vodka to work with me in a backpack. My cubicle was next to the mens room so I would just grab my backpack and head into the bathroom and drink til I stopped shaking. I ended up passing out at my desk. I was told that I was fired but had I come to them before this happened...and just told them....they would have paid for treatment and I would have kept my job. Maybe you could go to your boss and be honest with them about what you are going thru. Maybe they will help. Are you going to AA meetings at all?
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Old 02-06-2014, 10:11 AM
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Hey all. 124 hours since my last drink. I am doing better, day by day. Still have a headache, and still get strange night occurrences, but all in all, I can't complain. Still going strong!
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Nice one djfisher34... keep going buddy.
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Excellent news, djfisher34. Nice work!
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Old 02-06-2014, 06:53 PM
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Just got home from work, wasn't too bad this time. Headaches were minimal, no shakes at all. My body is definitely adjusting. Hour 133. Sorry to keep posting my hour number, but it helps me see my progress!
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