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05-13-2013, 10:07 PM

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Jeni26

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Great to hear from you MLC, I was thinking of you only yesterday.

Time to move forward now. Go home and give your lovely kids a big hug. They will have missed you lots.

You have taken that first big step closer to them now. So proud of you xxx

05-13-2013, 10:42 PM

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DainBramaged

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Agreed.. That is a huge step and commitment. Props.

05-13-2013, 11:33 PM

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LadyinBC

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It's good to see you MLC. Welcome back!

05-14-2013, 03:41 PM

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Originally Posted by MemphisBlues

Out of body type experiences, I think it can also be called depersonalization, is very common in benzo withdrawal. What did they tell you to expect? Do you have follow up treatment options? After care? Benzo support groups? I found it to be a special kind of hell.

So glad you went for this and amazed by your courage. One thing that kept me going was the thought that every day of hell I went through brought me one day closer towards recovery and one day further from the rut I had been in.

Thanks. Yeah it's like nothing else. I did experience depersonalisation as a teen when I was taking alot of LSD. I have a counselling appointment on Friday so I will go from there.

I can't stop shaking, my hands are constantly shaking and it feels like my brain is too. I feel totally incapacitated this morning, argghhhhh. And I look so sick when I see myself in the mirror.

05-14-2013, 03:47 PM

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Lenina

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(((((MLC)))))) This will pass. Focus on that thought. I had the depersonalization thing too as a teen. followed me into my 20's and had nothing to do with drugs or alcohol. you might ask your doctors about trying a beta blocker for the anxiety. I started taking atenonol due to a very minor heart defect and the side effects have been calmness and the depersonalizations stopped. Worth a try, I think. I take a very small amount (25 mgs) a day. it's non addictive, so do ask your doctors.

I'm glad to see you posting!

Love from Lenina

05-14-2013, 04:11 PM

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Thanks. I do think it is due to the benzo withdrawal in this case though.

Will consider beta blockers down the track if things don't change. They doubled my anti depressants a few days ago so I will see how that goes also.

My vision is blurry, I can't stop shaking, like seriously in keep spilling food all over me when I try to eat (

05-14-2013, 04:20 PM

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Marcher13

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Nice to see you back MLC, I'm a fellow Aussie. You must be thrilled to be home with the family .

05-14-2013, 04:38 PM

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Pondlady

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I'm sorry you are shaking. Hang in there, keep moving forward so you never have to go through this again.

05-14-2013, 04:59 PM

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coraltint

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Welcome back, kid!!

05-14-2013, 05:02 PM

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Dee74

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I hope things will continue to improve MLC. Glad you're seeing someone on Friday

05-14-2013, 08:05 PM

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Midlifecrisis

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Thanks all. I feel bloody awful

05-14-2013, 08:06 PM

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Dee74

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take care of yourself MLC...

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05-14-2013, 08:11 PM

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Mizzuno

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These physical symptoms will improve over time MLC. The fabulous thing, is that you are no longer on those pills, and you can get yourself back into great health. Great work MLC! Keep it up. Your body Thanks You.

05-14-2013, 08:12 PM

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Originally Posted by Midlifecrisis

Thanks all. I feel bloody awful

That means you are getting better...your body is finally over the hump and clearing out all the toxins. Things will only get better from here...stay strong!

05-14-2013, 09:03 PM

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Midlifecrisis

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Thanks. I'm worried about paws after such a rapid detox. I'm pretty much useless atm.

05-14-2013, 09:10 PM

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MLC, it's good to hear that you are back and staying clean!

Give yourself time, things will get better!

05-14-2013, 10:47 PM

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Thanks. Mentally I feel like I never want to touch a drug or drunk agajn. It's not worth this pain. My body and brain feel screwed.

05-14-2013, 11:42 PM

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great to see you back and to see your detox was successful. You will feel better soon,better than you ever imagined. Be proud of yourself for doing thisfor you and your family