Nonsensical

Weaving bacon makes me think it is probably the main ingredient in Viagra!

Nonsensical

And into the oven it goes. (I like to stick a little spinach in the middle.)

chanty

Yay for the weekend! Hope I you guys don't mind me joining in, sound like fun!
Hubby is away, have the remote to myself, dont have to worry about what to cook him for dinner, kids are still in their pjs, ahh nice.
Branches, I'm going to work on some photos too, I submit my pics to getty images, but have been so slack with them lately, being either drunk or hungover is not a good recipe for processing images!! Time to get back into it!

trachemys

Yea, that spinach moves it over into the health food category.

chanty

lol!!

thenewguy

Thanks. My life is such a hopeless wreck, that I'm probably going back to regular drinking. But not this weekend, at least.

Took a hot shower, and felt some stress/anxiety go down the drain with the water. Dinner is in the oven!! :

soberlicious

What could make your life better? Have you ever considered quitting for good? I hope you stay with us.

thenewguy

Well, I pretty much know what needs to be done, but I have so many physical and mental problems from drinking, and I'm paralyzed by anxiety and fear that I'm simply incapable of doing much of anything. I don't even have the confidence or clear-headedness to make a decision or plan of action on even relatively simple issues. I don't have any friends or family in this world..nobody!! I'm a living ghost in this world, and beer is my only friend.

I quit for 4 months last year, and 1-2 months here and there since then. I'm not sure if I want to quit for good. Why be sober if I'm paralyzed by inaction and fear anyway?

Thank you, that's very kind, maybe the kindest thing someone has conveyed to me in a long time. I hope I stay here, also. I didn't mean to lay down some heavy, self-pitying rap in a sober weekend thread.

YouRmySunshine

Good Luck with the home improvement project!
Gonna make dinner in a bit & have a quiet night of TV. Maybe read & work on some of my divorce paper work (YUCK!)
But at least I know I will DO IT SOBER

Tomorrow going to 2 AA meetings, then who knows suppose to get more snow here...

Stay sober & Stay strong everyone!
Peace
~Jules

YouRmySunshine

Seriously this made me laugh really hard!!!

trachemys

WRONG! You were capable of coming here instead of drinking.

WRONG! You have us! We already care more about you than beer does.

raja12

Hey every1. Looking forward to a sober weekend. Weather going to be a little nicer this weekend, so have things in the yard to get done.. Also taking my dog to her 1st socialization meetup on Sunday afternoon.Hoping it goes well. Have a great and sober weekend evry1! And to thenewguy......u r not alone without friends........you've got all us great folks here on SR! As far as family ,I will loan you my dysfunctional one anytime u wish! Lol. Sad, but true. Peace out friends.

Marcher13

It's a glorious warm breezy blue Saturday morning here, I wish I could send all of you some of the sunshine especially thenewguy.

thenewguy

Thank you marcher. I'm in Michigan and haven't seen the sun for about six weeks

I'm taking another shower and heading to bed early. I'm such a drunken outcast in this world that I'm geniunely touched by the words of greeting and support. Have a nice sober weekend, everybody

soberlicious

I don't find you self-pitying at all.

I'm sorry to have to be the one to break this to you, but beer is not your friend. Beer is actually the reason you are not confident or clear-headed. Beer is a liar. A pretty liar, but a liar all the same.

I know exactly what it feels like to be literally crippled by anxiety and fear. Please know that alcohol is probably the major contributing factor in that. Alcohol can exacerbate anxiety/fear/depression, and in many many cases, it actually turns out to be the sole cause of it all.

I see you have been a member for awhile. Have you tried any of the methods that members here discuss?

You write well. You're obviously intelligent. It may feel to you now that there is no way out, but you actually hold the key. I'm glad you are going to stay with us.

thenewguy

I can walk to two churches that are each one block away from me that have AA meetings. I guess that was my mistake when I quit for four months ago; the plan was to quit for the spring and summer, and come back 'refreshed' in the fall, and I wasted no time getting back into the binge-drinking. In the past, I've mistakenly disdained it, but I understand better that it's just a group of folks that want to be sober and well.

The thing is, I'm confused by the directives. They say go to 90 meetings/many meetings. But, on most days, if I manage to do my laundry and groceries in the same day, I probably need a nap. I work full-time, and I need to exercise at the gym, do errands, cook and clean for myself, etc. I'm just not sure if I can go to that many meetings.

No, I feel like that guy in the Big Book who can't live with alcohol, can't live without it. Or, Gollum from Lord of the Rings who's bound to the power of the One Ring. I'm trapped in a labyrinth, and I can't get out.

Ugh...I'm not trying to write War and Peace...sorry so long...going to sleep.

kelle96

Made it through a snow day! No trips for wine, just a ton of tv brownies and green tea Day 5 done

YouRmySunshine

Congrats on 5 days! (but seriously I'm so sick of the snow here too!)
Heres to a sober, sunny new day!

CNH08

I'm struggling. seriously struggling. I want to either go to the bar or pick up a six pack. UGH!!!

soberlicious

thenewguy...
I hope that you will start a thread saying just what you said here. There is an amazing amount of knowledge here at SR. Lots of people may miss your post because it's in this thread and they may not read the weekend thread. Starting a thread will allow many many more to respond to you.

In the meantime, if you haven't read about AVRT, you should check out the threads in the secular section and see if any of it hits home with you.