omfg. This is killing me.
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I'm here. Doing better too. Not much beter but better none the less. Took a bath today and listened to some guided meditations. Been sleeping a little better but in very short amounts and broken. Anxiety is much lower today and just kinda waiting till my appetite returns.
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I'm here. Doing better too. Not much beter but better none the less. Took a bath today and listened to some guided meditations. Been sleeping a little better but in very short amounts and broken. Anxiety is much lower today and just kinda waiting till my appetite returns. I have not vomited in over 24 hours.
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I'm here. Doing better too. Not much beter but better none the less. Took a bath today and listened to some guided meditations. Been sleeping a little better but in very short amounts and broken. Anxiety is much lower today and just kinda waiting till my appetite returns.
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I never tried to get sober before. This wasn't a relapse. I mean I have said that whole "never drinking again" thing that everyone does when hung over and made an ass of themselves the next day but only as a joke. This is going to be my first try at getting sober. My denial lasted too long I guess.
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My temperature has came down a lot. I'm not sweating like I was yesterday. No shakes or only very little that I notice. Been doing a Nyquil shot about every 6 hours cause it relaxes me enough let me get a little sleep/relief and just kinda fighting it like the flu at this point. Once my appetite returns I start my antidepressants again. If I tried taking em now though they would wreck my body. I can't handle em without food and this binge killed my ability to eat.
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Glad you're still with us Zaxx. At some point in the near future you might want to come up with a recovery plan. For now maybe snoop around the forum, see your family doc, and if you can, don't take that first drink. All the best.
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Thanks Johnny. I'm still considering all options. The AA thing is a big turn off because of it's "higher power thing" with me. I don't think there is any higher power regarding myself then myself and since that is such a big part of their program I don't know what approach to take. AA is about the only good group option where I live though. Like I would have to either lie about accepting a higher power. I don't think I could do that for very long term. I'm just sorta lost with it all. I tend to be connecting to Buddhist approaches best at this point. I just want to center myself and find contentment. I don't think it is out of my control.
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Zaxx, the only requirement for AA is a desire to stop drinking. Personally, my higher power is truth.
I understand the reluctance, I felt the same way: I mean seriously... AA? I don't think so, I'm not like that, etc. And the truth is, I would willingly sit through an hour long rerun on TV that sucked the first time I saw it, but somehow was too busy to sit for 60 minutes in a room that possibily could save my life. Some people can get sober on their own, but unfortunately I was never one of them.
Good luck Jaxx - but do be careful. Seizures don't give advance warning, and having seen one up close & personal in someone who had just come out of medically supervised detox, I can attest that our disease plays for keeps.
I understand the reluctance, I felt the same way: I mean seriously... AA? I don't think so, I'm not like that, etc. And the truth is, I would willingly sit through an hour long rerun on TV that sucked the first time I saw it, but somehow was too busy to sit for 60 minutes in a room that possibily could save my life. Some people can get sober on their own, but unfortunately I was never one of them.
Good luck Jaxx - but do be careful. Seizures don't give advance warning, and having seen one up close & personal in someone who had just come out of medically supervised detox, I can attest that our disease plays for keeps.
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I once heard a sponsor tell someone when they didn't want to have a HP cause they didn't believe in God "someone hung that moon at comes up at night, and that someone wasn't you, you find yourself a God or you will die of the disease called alcoholism"
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