omfg. This is killing me.
 

Drying out. uggh so gross feeling. Did a x2 1.75 liter bender. Just want this withdrawal to pass. I know I won't drink ever again if I can make it past this first couple days and heal. Been sweating, shaking, vomiting blood. Massive amount of anxiety. UGH SO SICK.

puking blood = ER. Not posting on the internet. Now.

ditto

Hospital now GO!

INH

It wasn't like a ton of blood or anything. Just some and the barfing seems to of calmed some. Been slamming lots of cold water. If feels good if I puke to just have the water come out. Kinda hard to explain.

I would give my kingdom for a sedative. I can't even hardly get out of bed right now. Hoping my stomach calms enough so I can take a shot of Nyquil to help put me to sleep. Not sure if that is a good idea though.

NyQuil is 15% alcohol.

I third the medical attention.

I remember feeling the way you do now.....the worst.

Next time you want to drink, try to remember how you feel right now. Worth it? No!

I actually wrote myself a letter about it as soon as I was well enough to pick up a pen.

I wish you would to to the ER....they would be able to give you a sedative or something to calm your stomach and keep you hydrated. Have you tried saltines? They always made my stomach feel better.

This can be the last time you ever have to go through this. Please take care and keep us posted.

I'm not worried about the alcohol in it. I only take it as directed and 15% in a shot after poisoning myself with so much 80 proof whiskey. Seems kinda like tiny thing to me.

As soon as you are able to walk, see where the closest AA meeting is.
Wishing you the best of luck.

Bob R

I wish the ER was a more realistic option. My insurance would flip and I am afraid they could put me in a psych ward over it. I would have to lie about a lot of things to the doc. You mention suicidal and intrusive thoughts they will keep you for observation.

Uggh there is no way I could even think of being in a AA meeting let alone even in public right now. I feel so gross in every possible way.

I'm not suicidal btw but can't help thinking about it. I would never act on it though.

Sweating so hard. Very flu like symtoms.

How about making an appointment with your regular doctor? Try to get them to fit you in today, ASAP.

If you can't, make a plan to have recovery beyond these withdrawals! I know, because I have done it many times. You will forget how $hitty it was and drink again.

I really don't think I will drink again. I know everyone says that but I'm over 30 years old and it just affects me in different ways now. None of it is fun. The problem I have with drinking is not being able to stop once I start. It's not hard for me to not drink. I just ****** up royally and think this is my final wakeup call. I just want this sickness to pass. I would love to just be able to get anything in my stomach and sleep.

This feels like a nervous breakdown on top of a really bad flu.

Im on day 5. Right now I am shaking so bad. Room is spinning. It comes in waves. Was just praying I get through this without a seizure. If I feel one coming, I have a nurse friend down the street. I WILL CALL. I understand you are feeling real bad but the throwing up blood would send me to the ER.

By the way, nyquil is a bad idea. Has alcohol in it. Thats the last thing you need

I almost want to get a beer just cause I think tapering down from the shock of going from so much of a bender might help but my problem is I think I will just end up overdoing it and get drunk again thus prolonging the inevitable crash. This is so terrible. I can't believe I did this to myself.