A Very Dark day but there is light..
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In 3 days
Wow a year since I last posted, what a year 
In a few days I will be 9 years stone cold sober 9 years since I walked home from that hospital, 9 years living in the raw dealing with all kinds of **** ups downs happy not so happy but with me the real deal no medicated me.
I never think about alcoHELL now its just something that has no interest to me.
Often wonder what happened to the Jan 2012 group and if any of them are still sober ?
I run and run a lot its kept me in the zone.
tips for newbs to this.
Always play the tape forward,you know the rest.
staring at a blank wall for a day is better than going back to it, surf the cravings they come in waves go to battle with them, each time you get stronger.
Jason vale book kick the drink easily helped me change my mindset.
rational recovery. Search out the bullets.
I wish you all well !
In a few days I will be 9 years stone cold sober 9 years since I walked home from that hospital, 9 years living in the raw dealing with all kinds of **** ups downs happy not so happy but with me the real deal no medicated me.
I never think about alcoHELL now its just something that has no interest to me.
Often wonder what happened to the Jan 2012 group and if any of them are still sober ?
I run and run a lot its kept me in the zone.
tips for newbs to this.
Always play the tape forward,you know the rest.
staring at a blank wall for a day is better than going back to it, surf the cravings they come in waves go to battle with them, each time you get stronger.
Jason vale book kick the drink easily helped me change my mindset.
rational recovery. Search out the bullets.
I wish you all well !
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Congratulations and thanks again for sharing.
Your thread always makes me feel great about sobriety and I relate a lot with your tools: Jason Vale and running were great to start me on the right path. running still ongoing
Your thread always makes me feel great about sobriety and I relate a lot with your tools: Jason Vale and running were great to start me on the right path. running still ongoing
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Oh yes !
Originally Posted by Surrendered19 
Wow DarkDays!!! Thanks so much for popping in and checking on all of us. That is amazing stuff. Even if you don't come back more often, promise you'll pop in each year like this. It is awesome.
It's truly inspiring!
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Wow DD , what an amazing post.
My friend Mags just sent me this link . ( thanks Mags )
You are such an inspiration. Thanks for coming back and sharing you are 9 years sober. The initial post broke my heart as I've been there and to read this today gives me strength.
Thanks so much for your honesty and sharing. I'm sure you will help many, many people reading this
Xxxx
My friend Mags just sent me this link . ( thanks Mags )
You are such an inspiration. Thanks for coming back and sharing you are 9 years sober. The initial post broke my heart as I've been there and to read this today gives me strength.
Thanks so much for your honesty and sharing. I'm sure you will help many, many people reading this
Xxxx
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I just read your first post which was heartbreaking, and didn't notice the date. When I did I skipped to the last page and was so delighted to see you're sober! Congratulations!
I have a young son, and towards the end of 2019 the house of cards really was collapsing and I was rapidly spiralling out of control. One night my son, who would have been almost 4 was unwell and wouldn't settle, I could not put him down. In the past he'd had hospital admissions from chest infections so we always had to be vigilant when he started to get ill. Anyway this one night I just had craved a drink all evening and I remember cradling him on his bed, just silently willing him to please go to sleep so I could drink. And when he did I came downstairs and started drinking, even though it was really late. Stayed up til the early hours and got plastered by myself even though I needed to be vigilant in case he needed medical help. My husband was sober but the shame I felt even while I was drinking was awful. Still took me a couple of months after that to finally kick it, to my great shame.
I'm very gratefully one year and 10 days sober now. It's really inspired me to read this.
I have a young son, and towards the end of 2019 the house of cards really was collapsing and I was rapidly spiralling out of control. One night my son, who would have been almost 4 was unwell and wouldn't settle, I could not put him down. In the past he'd had hospital admissions from chest infections so we always had to be vigilant when he started to get ill. Anyway this one night I just had craved a drink all evening and I remember cradling him on his bed, just silently willing him to please go to sleep so I could drink. And when he did I came downstairs and started drinking, even though it was really late. Stayed up til the early hours and got plastered by myself even though I needed to be vigilant in case he needed medical help. My husband was sober but the shame I felt even while I was drinking was awful. Still took me a couple of months after that to finally kick it, to my great shame.
I'm very gratefully one year and 10 days sober now. It's really inspired me to read this.
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Well today is day 3635 days stone cold sober since I stopped 🤣
I hope everyone is well and doing the best they can.
Not posted since January and feel bit guilty for not doing so as this website gave me so much help in my first couple of years.
The Christmas period we are bombarded with alcohell images and everyone posting their pics of booze on Facebook (imagine if they were doing it with another drug,lol) I now feel So good that I am not part of the herd doing this and am free from the trap of it all.
Nothing will make me drink, absolutely nothing. Gotta grind it out people till you get to a place you can make it, if you drink you know you have to go through the early day process again round n round. I always said from the start surf the cravings they come in waves, never surrender, stare at a wall all day if you have to good things await.
I am currently on a 652 day run streak, I run a lot it’s been a massive help.
Stay cool, stay sober.
until next time !
I hope everyone is well and doing the best they can.
Not posted since January and feel bit guilty for not doing so as this website gave me so much help in my first couple of years.
The Christmas period we are bombarded with alcohell images and everyone posting their pics of booze on Facebook (imagine if they were doing it with another drug,lol) I now feel So good that I am not part of the herd doing this and am free from the trap of it all.
Nothing will make me drink, absolutely nothing. Gotta grind it out people till you get to a place you can make it, if you drink you know you have to go through the early day process again round n round. I always said from the start surf the cravings they come in waves, never surrender, stare at a wall all day if you have to
good things await. I am currently on a 652 day run streak, I run a lot it’s been a massive help.
Stay cool, stay sober.
until next time !
Thank you for that. 
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