another new sobriety date
another new sobriety date
it's been a while since i've been here. i've had so many new sobriety dates, damage control, and continued waste and selfishness.
I'll try again. last use 3-25-10.
I'll stay in today; say the serenity prayer in my head. listen much more than I talk.
I don't have many words in me. This using is so old. it's not fun and it don't feel good. but it numbs my fear, for a little while, and then the next day the fear is still there; often it's a little more.
i keep looking for things outside of me to fulfill me--to make me happy. but happiness and peace and love is an inside job; i got the knowledge but not the action.
i will take the right actions today.
I'll try again. last use 3-25-10.
I'll stay in today; say the serenity prayer in my head. listen much more than I talk.
I don't have many words in me. This using is so old. it's not fun and it don't feel good. but it numbs my fear, for a little while, and then the next day the fear is still there; often it's a little more.
i keep looking for things outside of me to fulfill me--to make me happy. but happiness and peace and love is an inside job; i got the knowledge but not the action.
i will take the right actions today.
i appreciate the responses. as far as a plan; you know i really don't have a plan. I don't even know if i'll stay clean to be honest. it's important for me to stay in today, go to meetings and not have too much time alone. those are things i can do. I also need to write everyday (which i haven't done in a long time), and also meditate twice a day (which i haven't done in a long time), and pray (which i've been very inconsistent with).
there are other things but those are enough for now. i need to keep it simple that's for sure
there are other things but those are enough for now. i need to keep it simple that's for sure
Day 3. I'm paying attention to my mind chatter and noticing how much i talk bad to and about myself. I don't feel good about myself right now. i'm at the AA club and will be going to a meeting later.
i'm going to check out the forum a bit
i'm going to check out the forum a bit
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