another new sobriety date
it's been a while since i've been here. i've had so many new sobriety dates, damage control, and continued waste and selfishness.
I'll try again. last use 3-25-10.
I'll stay in today; say the serenity prayer in my head. listen much more than I talk.
I don't have many words in me. This using is so old. it's not fun and it don't feel good. but it numbs my fear, for a little while, and then the next day the fear is still there; often it's a little more.
i keep looking for things outside of me to fulfill me--to make me happy. but happiness and peace and love is an inside job; i got the knowledge but not the action.
i will take the right actions today.