another new sobriety date it's been a while since i've been here. i've had so many new sobriety dates, damage control, and continued waste and selfishness. I'll try again. last use 3-25-10. I'll stay in today; say the serenity prayer in my head. listen much more than I talk. I don't have many words in me. This using is so old. it's not fun and it don't feel good. but it numbs my fear, for a little while, and then the next day the fear is still there; often it's a little more. i keep looking for things outside of me to fulfill me--to make me happy. but happiness and peace and love is an inside job; i got the knowledge but not the action. i will take the right actions today. |
ks, I've been wondering how you were doing. I'm glad you're back! Love, Lenina |
Gosh, Ksplash, I could have written those same words myself. The endless fear! But, you know what, you can take the leap of faith that you need to recover. I'm glad you're back. |
Welcome back Ksplash :) What's your plan? D |
Glad you came back!! Always good to see you. I wish you much success. :grouphug: |
Welcome back! Any new plans on your recovery program? |
Welcome back! |
Welcome back KS :ring you can do this, we are all rooting for you! |
Good to see you here again.....:hug: All my best as you start fresh on your journey |
:welcome |
Welcome back, ((Kslplash))! Thanks for the reminder that going back out there is something I really don't wanna do. Hugs and prayers! Amy |
i appreciate the responses. as far as a plan; you know i really don't have a plan. I don't even know if i'll stay clean to be honest. it's important for me to stay in today, go to meetings and not have too much time alone. those are things i can do. I also need to write everyday (which i haven't done in a long time), and also meditate twice a day (which i haven't done in a long time), and pray (which i've been very inconsistent with). there are other things but those are enough for now. i need to keep it simple that's for sure |
Day 3. I'm paying attention to my mind chatter and noticing how much i talk bad to and about myself. I don't feel good about myself right now. i'm at the AA club and will be going to a meeting later. i'm going to check out the forum a bit |
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