Paulos

With the new chat monitors I felt slighted, despite the injustice that was done it is true that maybe I should not have left. Either way, it matters not. ... it's over, I can no longer st and the trauma of my life, my dreams, my mother's demands, my mother's looks/etc... even she is right about alot of the things I do, yes, but she is ... she just ... doesn't understnad anymore, I'm so close to age 24 and I've done nothing to community, I can't drive, she is PUSHING THE DRIVING SO MUCH AND USES IT AGAINST ME... it's really pitiful. ... I ... can't stop... crying... it's ... too much to bear. I'm sorry to everyone who I've disappointed, those who hate me on this site, those who like me, and so on. good-bye, I wish you the best.

OZboy

Please don't go any where! I don't know you,yet. Wait till other sr folk post.
"everything you've decided about yourself is in play at this moment."
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Tazman53

Paulos no apology needed, accept what is going on and move on, no one that I know of is mad at you, nor has any one been hurt.

least

Please stay Paulos. YOu've not offended me and I'd hate to see you leave over a misunderstanding.:ghug

Rowan

You have been missed, Paulos, and you are still needed in chat - the chair is waiting for you, if and when you are ready.

Dean62

Paulos don't do anything right now. Your in a bad place but it will get better. Give yourself time to see a better day.

Aysha

P..I seen the biggest growth I have ever seen here.. in you when you started doing chat meetings.
You may think I am trying to lay guilt trips on ypu. but I am not.
Think about what it was like before that time.
Then think about the transformation you made in such a short amount of time.
I swear it wasnt even the same person.
And you did so well and turned your whole attitude and outlook around.
You had gained respect from alot of people and showed the nonbelievers you could do it.
And you did all that. Simply by helping others. By making yourself a service to others in need.
Helping the countless people you have did more for you than I think you could ever relize Paulos.
I echo Ro...I know you are missed. Its not about the ones who dont. Its about the ones you do make the difference with. About the difference it makes in you.

Sometimes we need to bite the bullet for the greater good.

stone

(((Paulos)))

I hope you change your mind.

Good post Trish!

historyteach

(((Paul)))
You've done nothing wrong to anyone here.
You felt a slight and you expressed it.
We want you to come back and continue doing the chat meetings.
You did them so well.
Those who didn't appreciate your services know now that they do not have to attend - THEY were they ones in the wrong!

I hope you are ok. You don't sound so good. Please post and let us know that you are doing ok. We care...

Shalom!

paulmh

Paulos - love you man. I don't know anything about chat, but I do know that you're always an honest voice here. Take care of yourself and make sure the decisions you make serve you well.

Bamboozle

Hey, Paulos. I hope you stick around.

Freedom1990

Paulos, please don't leave. :ghug :ghug

warrens

Paulos

There is room for everyone here. None of us are here because we are "normal."

In fact, our differences enhance this place and keep it in balance.

I have no idea what the underlying issues are, nor do I care. I only rarely use chat.

You contribute much to this community simply by being here and who you are. Stick around, my friend, this too shall pass.

warren

flutter

I know that leaving is your decision to make, and I just wanted to wish you luck. Always know that this is a welcoming place to everyone, and you will be missed.

IO Storm

I've just talked to you just a couple of times, Paulos. I knew it! You are my boy's age.

I think I was the only one who figured out one of your posts..you were hooting about

scoring on a game, right? Woo hoo!

I've been in Chat a couple of times..not really used to it..but I sure would like to see

YOU there. Don't jump this ship now, Paulos...we all need each other.

Love,

Sher

ANGELINA243

Paulos Like Chi posted--you have come a long way...I agree. Don't give up now. Your willingness to help others has been an inspiration to me.

Texasblind

Aw he ll no. Paulos, you have to be here. We came to SR at similar times and I need you here. Host maybe one or two chats a week, don't go overboard. Get that passion back.

Paulos

Your words are kind and good, yet ... I often feel I was born on the wrong planet. Sigh... my mother... suddenly acts like the mother from 15 years ago ... but I had no idea people even cared honestly and this is not a pity party, I did not feel with the new "chat monitors", as I call them moderators due to their supreme power in the chat, that I would be needed anymore.

least

The chat monitors are there to keep order, which can only help keep your meetings from going in a bad direction, due to someone behaving badly. They are there to help you, not stand in your way. Their only 'supreme power' is to maintain order in chat so that members do not get out of hand. So... are you gonna do your meetings again? Lots of chat meeting regulars miss you and want you back. :ghug3

THere's no need to apologize, just come back and start your meetings again.

IO Storm

Paulos..

Please...separate your issues with your mom, with what you feel about SR.

When we alkies and addicts are overwhelmed with a lot of emotion we tend to

"lump everything together" and tend to feel at times, that the whole world is

against us. And that..is a dangerous spot to be in.

Hey..if I'm wrong, call me on it! I do care..that you are in so much distress.

No one here..that I see so far is against you.