Class of July 2008 Part II
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Good Morning Everyone! :)
WOW! That is a very powerful statement...so true. Thank you for the reminder as I can see this in my own life...FOR SURE! WOW!
WHOO-HOO! That is awesome! I can relate to this statement so much!
Me too! Makes me want to go out and run a marathon and be as healthy and strong as I am able! Speaking of which, how is the training going? I am off to a very slow start, but I'm not going to give up on my goal of running. Keep me posted! :)
Congrats to everyone on their progress! I am so grateful to all of you. I hope you are all having a great week so far! :)
~M
Originally Posted by Time2Surrender 
"While your sitting here at this meeting your disease is out in the parking lot doing push-ups" Thats a fact.
Originally Posted by toooldfratguy
It was great to wake up both mornings feeling good and waking up early so we could enjoy our time there.
Originally Posted by nayster
Wow, that is an excellent point. My aunt was diagnosed with breast cancer only 2 months ago - she's only 44. If it was as simple as 12 steps for her..... well... your post hit me like a ton of bricks too.
Congrats to everyone on their progress! I am so grateful to all of you. I hope you are all having a great week so far! :)
~M
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YAY! made it through last night
Well I guess I sent in my post a little too soon when I said "haven't gotten through dinner yet but it should be fine" or whatever I said.
But I want to tell you all that I DID NOT drink, even though my friend (who came over for dinner, and does'nt know I quit) brought over my FAVORITE wine, the expensive bottle that I never get to drink, and boy I looked at it and it was icy cold and I thought "geez can't I have just one glass???"
But I didn't! I didn't have one. I had water with lemon instead. and you know what??? I didn't die!! I didn't get so depressed I couldn't get out of bed! it was actually, OK!! and today, I feel good, great even for not drinking and proud of myself for being able to say no.
It made me realize that I want sobriety more than i want to pick up that drink!
Even if I would have drank one or two glasses last night, and that was all, I know what happens after that. Within the next few days or at least by that weekend, I will go on a big binge. AGAIN. for the umpteenth time.
How many times does one have to hit themselves in the head with a hammer before they stop and say, "uh, gee, this hurts! maybe I should stop doing it??"
So today is day 9. =) growing every day, getting stronger in every way, although slowly.
But I want to tell you all that I DID NOT drink, even though my friend (who came over for dinner, and does'nt know I quit) brought over my FAVORITE wine, the expensive bottle that I never get to drink, and boy I looked at it and it was icy cold and I thought "geez can't I have just one glass???"
But I didn't! I didn't have one. I had water with lemon instead. and you know what??? I didn't die!! I didn't get so depressed I couldn't get out of bed! it was actually, OK!! and today, I feel good, great even for not drinking and proud of myself for being able to say no.
It made me realize that I want sobriety more than i want to pick up that drink!
Even if I would have drank one or two glasses last night, and that was all, I know what happens after that. Within the next few days or at least by that weekend, I will go on a big binge. AGAIN. for the umpteenth time.
How many times does one have to hit themselves in the head with a hammer before they stop and say, "uh, gee, this hurts! maybe I should stop doing it??"
So today is day 9. =) growing every day, getting stronger in every way, although slowly.
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thanks Time2surrender =) see my other post below when I said at the time ther was no wine in the house--a friend brought some later (like some weird kind of coincidence or just another example of me opening mouth inserting foot) which definitely gave me the opportunity, but I didn't drink.
day 9 now....
day 9 now....
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Good morning to all my family here at SoberRecovery. You guys have inspired me more than words can say. I completed my 4th step yesterday and woke up this morning with 24 days!!!!! Life is good. Today I have hope. You can do this. Hang in there. Im so glad to hear that. Im so proud of you. You are an inspiration to many newcomers here at SR. Thanks. I shared the same story at an NA meeting last night. They loved it. We all have a chance to live. Working some steps seems like a small price for something that can save ones life and be so rewarding. My condolances on your sister. Perhaps she would like to know your working the steps that can save your life.
Originally Posted by winwin
I hope to get as far as you Least. Day 2 is going OK after a couple of relapses. I do think it is getting easier.
Originally Posted by nobingealready
thanks Time2surrender =) see my other post below when I said at the time ther was no wine in the house--a friend brought some later (like some weird kind of coincidence or just another example of me opening mouth inserting foot) which definitely gave me the opportunity, but I didn't drink.
day 9 now....
day 9 now....
Originally Posted by cmhcali
Mikey,
That really hit home your analogy. My sister died of cancer. I would do anything if the 12 steps could have saved her so you are right atleast I have a chance. I have actually been thinking about her a lot lately. I have never let go of the resentment I hold for not being with her as much as I could have been when she was dying. I still do not know if I can write her name on my fourth step list. Would I resent myself and write my name or hers and how I resent myself for being so selfish. I should have been there everyday.. Sorry to go on a tangent. I should have been there everyday...
So that analogy is something I must always remember.
Thanks everyone for your helpful advice and being supportive and helping me stay sober!!!
That really hit home your analogy. My sister died of cancer. I would do anything if the 12 steps could have saved her so you are right atleast I have a chance. I have actually been thinking about her a lot lately. I have never let go of the resentment I hold for not being with her as much as I could have been when she was dying. I still do not know if I can write her name on my fourth step list. Would I resent myself and write my name or hers and how I resent myself for being so selfish. I should have been there everyday.. Sorry to go on a tangent. I should have been there everyday...
So that analogy is something I must always remember.
Thanks everyone for your helpful advice and being supportive and helping me stay sober!!!
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Great job!! There will be many "tests" such as last night, but you won!!
Originally Posted by nobingealready
Well I guess I sent in my post a little too soon when I said "haven't gotten through dinner yet but it should be fine" or whatever I said.
But I want to tell you all that I DID NOT drink, even though my friend (who came over for dinner, and does'nt know I quit) brought over my FAVORITE wine, the expensive bottle that I never get to drink, and boy I looked at it and it was icy cold and I thought "geez can't I have just one glass???"
But I didn't! I didn't have one. I had water with lemon instead. and you know what??? I didn't die!! I didn't get so depressed I couldn't get out of bed! it was actually, OK!! and today, I feel good, great even for not drinking and proud of myself for being able to say no.
It made me realize that I want sobriety more than i want to pick up that drink!
Even if I would have drank one or two glasses last night, and that was all, I know what happens after that. Within the next few days or at least by that weekend, I will go on a big binge. AGAIN. for the umpteenth time.
How many times does one have to hit themselves in the head with a hammer before they stop and say, "uh, gee, this hurts! maybe I should stop doing it??"
So today is day 9. =) growing every day, getting stronger in every way, although slowly.
But I want to tell you all that I DID NOT drink, even though my friend (who came over for dinner, and does'nt know I quit) brought over my FAVORITE wine, the expensive bottle that I never get to drink, and boy I looked at it and it was icy cold and I thought "geez can't I have just one glass???"
But I didn't! I didn't have one. I had water with lemon instead. and you know what??? I didn't die!! I didn't get so depressed I couldn't get out of bed! it was actually, OK!! and today, I feel good, great even for not drinking and proud of myself for being able to say no.
It made me realize that I want sobriety more than i want to pick up that drink!
Even if I would have drank one or two glasses last night, and that was all, I know what happens after that. Within the next few days or at least by that weekend, I will go on a big binge. AGAIN. for the umpteenth time.
How many times does one have to hit themselves in the head with a hammer before they stop and say, "uh, gee, this hurts! maybe I should stop doing it??"
So today is day 9. =) growing every day, getting stronger in every way, although slowly.
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Since were jammin now...........
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Just wanted to post a thought for the day that helped me from an AA Book as I know I am still selfish and want to control everything. I believe this is from Daily Reflections
LISTENING DEEPLY
August 5, 2008
How persistently we claim the right to decide all by ourselves just what we shall think and just how we shall act. TWELVE STEPS AND TWELVE TRADITIONS, p. 37
If I accept and act upon the advice of those who have made the program work for themselves, I have a chance to outgrow the limits of the past. Some problems will shrink to nothingness, while others may require patient, well-thought-out action. Listening deeply when others share can develop intuition in handling problems which arise unexpectedly. It is usually best for me to avoid impetuous action. Attending a meeting or calling a fellow A.A. member will usually reduce tension enough to bring relief to a desperate sufferer like me. Sharing problems at meetings with other alcoholics to whom I can relate, or privately with my sponsor, can change aspects of the positions in which I find myself. Character defects are identified and I begin to see how they work against me. When I put my faith in the spiritual power of the program, when I trust others to teach me what I need to do to have a better life, I find that I can trust myself to do what is necessary.
LISTENING DEEPLY
August 5, 2008
How persistently we claim the right to decide all by ourselves just what we shall think and just how we shall act. TWELVE STEPS AND TWELVE TRADITIONS, p. 37
If I accept and act upon the advice of those who have made the program work for themselves, I have a chance to outgrow the limits of the past. Some problems will shrink to nothingness, while others may require patient, well-thought-out action. Listening deeply when others share can develop intuition in handling problems which arise unexpectedly. It is usually best for me to avoid impetuous action. Attending a meeting or calling a fellow A.A. member will usually reduce tension enough to bring relief to a desperate sufferer like me. Sharing problems at meetings with other alcoholics to whom I can relate, or privately with my sponsor, can change aspects of the positions in which I find myself. Character defects are identified and I begin to see how they work against me. When I put my faith in the spiritual power of the program, when I trust others to teach me what I need to do to have a better life, I find that I can trust myself to do what is necessary.
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In about an hour I'll be starting my 24th day sober!!
Congratulations to everybody on their sober time, and for those who've slipped, get back up on the wagon!
Hey! Where is everybody??
Congratulations to everybody on their sober time, and for those who've slipped, get back up on the wagon!
Hey! Where is everybody??
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[QUOTE=nobingealready;1859241]
Even if I would have drank one or two glasses last night, and that was all, I know what happens after that. Within the next few days or at least by that weekend, I will go on a big binge. AGAIN. for the umpteenth time.
How many times does one have to hit themselves in the head with a hammer before they stop and say, "uh, gee, this hurts! maybe I should stop doing it??"
QUOTE]
nobinge......You nailed it! Good post! You just gave me great ammo for the next time I'm tempted to just have only a drink or two.
Even if I would have drank one or two glasses last night, and that was all, I know what happens after that. Within the next few days or at least by that weekend, I will go on a big binge. AGAIN. for the umpteenth time.
How many times does one have to hit themselves in the head with a hammer before they stop and say, "uh, gee, this hurts! maybe I should stop doing it??"
QUOTE]
nobinge......You nailed it! Good post! You just gave me great ammo for the next time I'm tempted to just have only a drink or two.
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[QUOTE=joinedintime;1860246]
Even if I would have drank one or two glasses last night, and that was all, I know what happens after that. Within the next few days or at least by that weekend, I will go on a big binge. AGAIN. for the umpteenth time.
How many times does one have to hit themselves in the head with a hammer before they stop and say, "uh, gee, this hurts! maybe I should stop doing it??"
QUOTE]
nobinge......You nailed it! Good post! You just gave me great ammo for the next time I'm tempted to just have only a drink or two. After having 2 1/2 years, I got loaded ONE time last September.............. For Nine Months!!!!!! I was convinced I could go out for one night. I really believed that. Any minute now I will be on day 25. And I am frateful for day 25 and grateful for making it back. Many dont.
Originally Posted by nobingealready
Even if I would have drank one or two glasses last night, and that was all, I know what happens after that. Within the next few days or at least by that weekend, I will go on a big binge. AGAIN. for the umpteenth time.
How many times does one have to hit themselves in the head with a hammer before they stop and say, "uh, gee, this hurts! maybe I should stop doing it??"
QUOTE]
nobinge......You nailed it! Good post! You just gave me great ammo for the next time I'm tempted to just have only a drink or two.
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Originally Posted by Jules62
Feel utterly ambivilant about it though
Julesxox
Julesxox
I have been having quite alot of craves again and they are begining to take their toll.
Sax (day 34)
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