Toomutch

I don't know you "yet" Rob, but it is obvious that you have a lot of love and suport around here. Please don't give up.

xXBacktoBlackXx

Please don't give up Rob. Everyone cares for you.

stone

I missed this post yesterday. Sorry Rob.

Don't give up mate! Youre not the first to screw up, we have all done it.

Just start again.

tay-lyn

We're all here praying for you!

llenroc66

I'm usually in a very dark place, but you help me and I'll say, "Once more." Just one more try. (As many...)

Your narative is honest and descriptive. Points.

I've been told that at some time(s) it works if a, "person comes back." I don't actively go to meetings but know they could help. I don't attend because I am weak but you have shown so much more.

Thank you. Try.

barb dwyer

RoB - Where'd ya go ?!?!?!??!

What happened?>??????? WAZZUP??? PM PM PM !!!!!

nogard

hey Rob, how you doing?

Tazman53

Rob you are not alone, I have been in that hole and I found my way out with the help of others who had been in that same hole before me.

Robzoloft

...Then I F*** it all up....to like the nth degree....family , children, money health...evryhting I tried so hard to get these two months....on NOTHING...no big story...just a thought that spiraled out of control and and splattered onto everything,....a thought and a drink....I can't do this again..I'm tired....wierd thoughts...GUILT SHAME REMORSE FEAR....I can't deal...I can't deal. I'm too down

Anonymity

Focus on what you can salvage out of the situation. I don't know the story, since I'm new here. Self-loathing isn't going to make the problem go away.

Rowan

Rob, I relapsed twice, both times after 2 years! I made it back and so can you.

Focus on the solution, not the problem.

tellus

You CAN do it again, Rob. And I think somewhere under all that despair you know you can do it - otherwise you wouldn't be back here.

I'm having those dangerous thoughts, too: "I can't do this," "I should just give up now," et cetera. Should I just give up? Then neither should you.

We love you! You can do it again.

stone

I got to 6 months sober and drank again, very recently. I made it back Rob and so can you.

If you are still drinking you WILL be having weird thoughts! I went insane when I relapsed. Hurt people I care about, talked shite, had blackouts.

First step is just to put the bottle down.

tay-lyn

Rob, we've all done the same. I had nine months of sobriety and drank it away, it took me three years to come back after that relapse. Please don't do the same. Please make your relapse as short as possible and get back on track! You can do it. Don't over think it. Just try for one day not to drink!
Hugs.

parentrecovers

come back, rob. hugs, k

serenityqueen

Rob, I was only on SR briefly yesterday so this is the first time I've read your thread. Had many outside things to tend to.

Those 50 days you have are not gone! Sounds to me like in that time frame, you had grown, learned some things about yourself and by now, you probably have a few more Recovery tools that you've put in your toolbox. Relapse, just like Recovery, in my opinion, is a process. Can you see now what lead up to you picking up? Thoughts, behaviors, actions,being around certain people, places and things . . . No one just all of sudden, out of nowhere picks up a drink or another drug. I'm not saying that out of sarcasim at all, I want you to know that.

In the many years that I was out, I could get clean but had the problem of staying clean. I had relapsed more times than I can honestly count. That's not just an expression. One time when I was in the hospital, once again being taken up to the 6th floor, which was the detox unit, I heard something that really hit home with me. After I had passed the nursing station, I heard one nurse say,"Yeah, she's back again. We have our very own Queen of Relapse." I had been beating myself up enough and I definately didn't need to hear something like that. Or so I thought. Now, look at my avatar. I am no longer the Queen of Relapse, I am Serenity Queen. I'm at peace with myself.

NOW, NO MORE OF THIS!

Rob, don't get comfortable feeling sorry for yourself. That's exactly what your disease wants you to do. I envision my disease as some ugly, blackish greenish, just yuck color, blob of **** that grows with each time I feel sorry for myself, kick myself in the butt, feel as though once again, I screwed up . . . Don't feed it any longer.

I respect the hell out of you for coming on here and owning your stuff. That takes a strong person to do that. You're alot stronger than I think you realize.

God Bless,
Judy
:ghug3

Tazman53

Rob it is time for action!!!! Not inaction!

Jump off of that pity pot, look at those 50 days, they are not lost, take every thing you did to stay sober those 50 days and keep them, then add more to it! Learn from what led you to the relapse, was it something you quit doing or started doing.

You have lost nothing and have every thing to gain at this point.

User_Name

I relapsed after 80 days, and although it devastated me I wasn't ready to give up on sobriety. If sobriety were easy, more people would do it and we wouldn't have AA and SR. You are not a failure unless you stop trying to get sober. My relapse wasn't pretty, but it did reinforce my first step and I am refocused on my program. To be quite honest, it scared the **** out of me. I do hope you pick yourself up, dust yourself off, and keep working at it. You must not beat yourself up too badly, rather look back and decide if you would rather have more sober days or more days full of guilt, shame, and remorse. I wish you luck and strength.

Ready 2 Rock

The only requirement for membership is a DESIRE to stop drinking.

I had to keep this in mind during may last relapse. Although I didn't go to as many meetings due to my condition, I didn't give up. I kept reading and going to outpateint sessions. Suddenly, I DID experience the spiritual awakening one morning! I haven't had a drink since.

Hope this gives you hope!

R2R

barb dwyer

**************{Rob}}}}}}}}}}

c'mon, hon. Carol sez alla time how many times it took her ... you made it two months.

I went back out after three months.. or was it four?
I was on the third step.
yeah. like I can remember six years ago.

I literally chose to die of drinking rather than make my peace iwth Spirit.
so I bloody well ... did.

now you know what two months feels like.
look how much you did for all those lurking peeps in six months.
and you didn't even MEAN to do that , didja?

it jsut kinda ... happened.

i saw honest, actual REAL stuff happen with you , bud.

don't give up, rob.

so what happens now?
so you pickem up ... and you start again.
when you feel better in a few days.. maybe take a look at what happened.
(and clean that place UP, dood)
right now, get some juice, some water, a shower....

keep posting - you scared the sheep outa me ...

we're here Rob.

I'm GLAD to hear from you.