So last Thurs was like 50 days....everthing going well
...Then I F*** it all up....to like the nth degree....family , children, money health...evryhting I tried so hard to get these two months....on NOTHING...no big story...just a thought that spiraled out of control and and splattered onto everything,....a thought and a drink....I can't do this again..I'm tired....wierd thoughts...GUILT SHAME REMORSE FEAR....I can't deal...I can't deal. I'm too down