Why I think I drank again-no not today!
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Originally Posted by Tazman53 
Going to a meeting my friend, that will help you get out of your head, calling my sponsor and talking it over with him helps get the crap out of my head, you may want to try that to. I have heard it said that any problem shared is halfed every time it is shared and it helps others to.
You hit 2 nails on the head....getting to a meeting will get me out of my own head....and talking to others helps get the crap out of it (and potentially helps others).
For now...that is just about all I can focus on...that and keeping it in the day.
Stoney. Just keep doing the next right thing 
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I think I got overwhelmed by what I thought other peoples expectations of me where in AA. I never felt like I was doing it right somehow. So I stopped. But it wasnt their fault, it was all in my head.
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Originally Posted by Tazman53
I have come to learn that what other people think of me or my program is none of my business......
I still struggle with that some days but mostly I really don't care and I have to tell you, it's like a weight was lifted off of my.
Hope you have a great sober day Stone. You deserve it.
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Why I think I drank again...after four months of "sobriety", which (by the grace of my Higher Power) was over 28 years ago?
Because I set myself up for failure by not following all of the suggestions? The main one being "no relationship within the first year".
By thinking I was too smart to fall into the emotional trap of a toxic relationship, and that I could get him sober?
Because I simply wanted to drink more than I wanted to stay sober?
Whatever the reasons boiled down to, it was a very painful and humbling experience...the memory of which I pray will continue to help keep me sober.
In the words of one of my favorite Old Timers, "If you are looking for sobriety, I pray to God you find it. If you have found sobriety, I pray to God you keep it."
Because I set myself up for failure by not following all of the suggestions? The main one being "no relationship within the first year".
By thinking I was too smart to fall into the emotional trap of a toxic relationship, and that I could get him sober?
Because I simply wanted to drink more than I wanted to stay sober?
Whatever the reasons boiled down to, it was a very painful and humbling experience...the memory of which I pray will continue to help keep me sober.
In the words of one of my favorite Old Timers, "If you are looking for sobriety, I pray to God you find it. If you have found sobriety, I pray to God you keep it."
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