Going to try again- hope I make it
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Hi everyone, wow I've had so many people PM me lately. I guess people really do care. It just dawned on me now that i have a hard time reaching out for help when i need it. Just like using the phone. That weighs a 100 tons too. I have to learn to reach out better on here and at my meetings.
My home group meeting is tonight. I'm going to go. My nephews Birthday party is in a hour, I'll just have to leave early. My husband really wants me to go too. He told me he notices that I'm happier when I'm not drinking. My sinuses feel better too when I don't drink. For some reason i get so stuffy the next day when i wake up after drinking.
Barb
My home group meeting is tonight. I'm going to go. My nephews Birthday party is in a hour, I'll just have to leave early. My husband really wants me to go too. He told me he notices that I'm happier when I'm not drinking. My sinuses feel better too when I don't drink. For some reason i get so stuffy the next day when i wake up after drinking.
Barb
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OK. I'll save you a piece of cake and ice cream. We have all kinds of other goodies there too.
Well gotta go. I think I'll put on a sweat shirt before we leave. It's cold here today.
Barb
Well gotta go. I think I'll put on a sweat shirt before we leave. It's cold here today.
Barb
Scaredy. Have a nice time!
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Got my white chip tonight.
Hi Everyone, well i went to my home group meeting tonight. I got my white chip and surrendered again. I told everyone what happened too. I wish I had the courage to tell my sponsor because i have to tell her after awhile.
All of my in-laws are proud of me. Especially my mother in-law. She's the greatest. We had a nice birthday party today for my nephew and his Mom. I missed some of it going to my meeting, but that was OK. I needed to be there.
Barb
All of my in-laws are proud of me. Especially my mother in-law. She's the greatest. We had a nice birthday party today for my nephew and his Mom. I missed some of it going to my meeting, but that was OK. I needed to be there.
Barb
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WHEW!! I can't believe I read the whole thread! But that is my compulsive behavior. Scaredy......you keep hanging in there. I have been clean and sober almost 8 months. That is a miracle, b/c I used daily for 10 years. The longer I stay away from that crap the better I am. And hun, you need to be honest with your sponsor. If we can't be honest with them we are in trouble
I totally appreciate your honesty on here. You are blessed by all the love and support you get. Hang in there
I totally appreciate your honesty on here. You are blessed by all the love and support you get. Hang in there
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Wow thank you tanyapmc for reading the whole thing. I am amazed with all of the support i have.
Congratulations on 8 months.
Maybe if i tell my sponsor on the phone it will be easier for me instead of face to face. Either way, I know i have to tell her.
Barb
Congratulations on 8 months.
Maybe if i tell my sponsor on the phone it will be easier for me instead of face to face. Either way, I know i have to tell her.
Barb
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hi barb -
it's my experience that it's that very feeling - that dread, or covering up of it ... that makes us drink more often than not in the first place. Call yer sponsor.
The dreading of something is almost always worse thne the actual... uh..'somethng'.
it's my experience that it's that very feeling - that dread, or covering up of it ... that makes us drink more often than not in the first place. Call yer sponsor.
The dreading of something is almost always worse thne the actual... uh..'somethng'.
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Proud of you for picking up that white chip, and getting honest, Barb.
Yeah, Barbarella is right, covering up the truth, or the feelings associated with it, often can drive us to drink. Remember, rigorously honest!
Hope you are feeling good today.
Yeah, Barbarella is right, covering up the truth, or the feelings associated with it, often can drive us to drink. Remember, rigorously honest!
Hope you are feeling good today.
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Hi Everyone. I'm at a loss of what to write today. My head is really foggy today. I'm glad I got my chip last night. I definitely belong here.
It's weird how my disease talks to me all the time saying i don't belong here because I've had so many "not yets". But it has gotten to me emotionally and spiritually big time.
Barb
It's weird how my disease talks to me all the time saying i don't belong here because I've had so many "not yets". But it has gotten to me emotionally and spiritually big time.
Barb
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