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Join Date: Feb 2007
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Hi Dee!! Glad you are back. I just need to know you didn't go back out there hun.
Hi Lisa. Thanks so much for that! Yum. I could do that. I have to go back over this thread when I get home and print it out.
Hi Lisa. Thanks so much for that! Yum. I could do that. I have to go back over this thread when I get home and print it out.
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Join Date: Apr 2007
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Steph,
it was like THE BIG TEST...my family don't accept I'm an alcoholic - my parents cos their kids have no problems - my siblings because they'd have to acknowledge their problem - so all weekend long it was 'drink this, drink that, come on try this, taste that...'
I didn't. Not even tempted.
I always thought I was weak. I'm starting to realise weakness and addiction are two different things.
Not getting cocky tho - passed a bottle shop this morning...and just for a millisecond a voice said 'hey you're in control now...just one would be ok'
LOL.
Never ends, does it?
D
it was like THE BIG TEST...my family don't accept I'm an alcoholic - my parents cos their kids have no problems - my siblings because they'd have to acknowledge their problem - so all weekend long it was 'drink this, drink that, come on try this, taste that...'
I didn't. Not even tempted.
I always thought I was weak. I'm starting to realise weakness and addiction are two different things.
Not getting cocky tho - passed a bottle shop this morning...and just for a millisecond a voice said 'hey you're in control now...just one would be ok'
LOL.
Never ends, does it?
D
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Join Date: Aug 2005
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Hi Steph, you will always have this feeling accessible to you now, even when things are hard you will be able to use it to give you strength. Dont worry about how you will feel when you get home, just enjoy today.
You will work out what you need to do in time.
ps
'weakness and addiction are two different things'
I like that!
You will work out what you need to do in time.
ps
'weakness and addiction are two different things'
I like that!
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Special hugs to al
We do need each other
It is a "WE" program -- thankfully. I know I could not do this alone...I tried and failed miserably...and becasue I am a slow learner..it took trying to do it several times on my own to figure it out...Hopefully others will learn from our mistakes...Thus the importance of sharing.
Special hugs
We do need each other
It is a "WE" program -- thankfully. I know I could not do this alone...I tried and failed miserably...and becasue I am a slow learner..it took trying to do it several times on my own to figure it out...Hopefully others will learn from our mistakes...Thus the importance of sharing.
Special hugs
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Hi. These last few posts since last night made me cry. Sherry. Thank you so much. The lime thing in the corona is hard for me too. When it's hot and stuff. Doesn't seem much harm in it. But then I'm not weak, just addicted. That is so wonderful Dee and I am sooooooo proud of you with your family. I know exactly what you mean - "our family is perfect" thing. Stone. Mr perfect advice. I can do that. It is getting better! I want to bottle it and take it back home to the cold dark struggling place. Hi K. 
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Hi Steph! Just popping in to say hello Been thinking of you.....
It's not raining today-thank heavens-but still pretty cold.I'll light the fire for you when you get back so you come home to a warm, light, place.
Much love being sent your way sweetie,
Julesxox
Been thinking of you.....It's not raining today-thank heavens-but still pretty cold.I'll light the fire for you when you get back so you come home to a warm, light, place.
Much love being sent your way sweetie,
Julesxox
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Well there were some tests today. Seems there are tests everywhere - even here on vacation with my children. I say HP is trying to tell me something. I was in the spa pool last night and a lady came up to me and started talking to me. She smelt really strongly of alcohol and wasn't making too much sense. Then she ordered a glass of red wine. Argh. My fave.
Then today was really frustrating. Lots and lots of little things that didn't go right. Lots of waiting and hold ups. It was hot and they were selling Corona with lime in it!!! Argh. Then I got some realy bad news from work.
Seems I am not cured after all. I am looking forward to my Sunday night meeting now. Winter or no winter. So there you go.
I have been thinking of you guys a lot today and I am looking forward to being able to sit down and chew the fat.
Home tomorrow. 25 hours travel back to real life.
Then today was really frustrating. Lots and lots of little things that didn't go right. Lots of waiting and hold ups. It was hot and they were selling Corona with lime in it!!! Argh. Then I got some realy bad news from work.
Seems I am not cured after all. I am looking forward to my Sunday night meeting now. Winter or no winter. So there you go.
I have been thinking of you guys a lot today and I am looking forward to being able to sit down and chew the fat.
Home tomorrow. 25 hours travel back to real life.
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Join Date: Mar 2007
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Steph...
I have a couple of those "tests" tomorrow...
Gonna surrender, suit up and show up...
You are right where you're supposed to be..dontcha hate it when
folks tell you that?
You're doing good...
Love,
:
IO
P.S.
It was hot and they were selling Corona with lime in it!!! Argh.
AAAAAARRRRRRGGGGGHHHHHH!! back. lol
I have a couple of those "tests" tomorrow...
Gonna surrender, suit up and show up...
You are right where you're supposed to be..dontcha hate it when
folks tell you that?
You're doing good...
Love,
:IO
P.S.
It was hot and they were selling Corona with lime in it!!! Argh.
AAAAAARRRRRRGGGGGHHHHHH!! back. lol
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Hi Steph, you are doing great! Even people with 25 years sobriety who say the desire to drink has been removed for them are still always on guard against that first drink-I am talking of my sponsor here, he has a wedding to go to and doesnt want to go cos people will be drinking.
That doesnt mean every day has to be a battle and of course it gets easier over time but cured? No, we are in daily remission from a disease.
25 hours! That sux ass!
You know what to do, get to a meeting, phone your sponsor, do the right things-what feels right spiritually. Oh, and message me too!
That doesnt mean every day has to be a battle and of course it gets easier over time but cured? No, we are in daily remission from a disease.
25 hours! That sux ass!
You know what to do, get to a meeting, phone your sponsor, do the right things-what feels right spiritually. Oh, and message me too!
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