One Year And Under Club Part 69
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Had a relapse - this covid malarkey and all the crazy restrictions had me so stressed ....
had some booze as a tranquillizer and it worked for a while but soon I was back to dangerous levels of alcohol and not doing anything other than drinking and sleeping - also wasted about £1,200 buying worthless rubbish while drunk
I'm soooo relieved I have stopped and it is great not to be constantly dehydrated and stinking
Anyway - I'm back to being sober and Christmas seems so much better without alcohol
:-)
had some booze as a tranquillizer and it worked for a while but soon I was back to dangerous levels of alcohol and not doing anything other than drinking and sleeping - also wasted about £1,200 buying worthless rubbish while drunk
I'm soooo relieved I have stopped and it is great not to be constantly dehydrated and stinking
Anyway - I'm back to being sober and Christmas seems so much better without alcohol
:-)
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Hi Red, glad you are back! I also had a relapse 9 days ago luckily it didn’t swallow up too much of my time but it swallowed up enough. So glad I made it out of the relatively unscathed. If anything I realize how my thought patterns are toxic and a recipe for substance abuse. Sending hugs your way.
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Good to see you back Red, it is so easy to fall back on old habits in times of stress, to the point with me I was actually allowing myself to get stressed so I had an excuse. Since I quit the poison and found other ways of coping, I find I am a lot more laid back and accepting of things I cant control. Im glad you found your way back here, we will help you through! 
Bodhi it's good you didn't lapse for too long, and that you see the toxicity of your 'stinkin drinkin thinkin' we absolutely have to learn to ignore those thoughts if we are to progress in recovery.
Bodhi it's good you didn't lapse for too long, and that you see the toxicity of your 'stinkin drinkin thinkin' we absolutely have to learn to ignore those thoughts if we are to progress in recovery.
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Good Morning All - glad to see you Red and Bodhi, and thanks everyone for the comments. I woke up to day 92 here, but yesterday was not without its struggles. AV is riding me hard, and I guess ignoring it makes me fragile in other ways. Had a fight w my husband yesterday, which sucks bc now I have to figure out if it was me who started it bc I was emotionally struggling, but when I tried to ask for space he pushed, didn’t like my response and overreacted. I guess I just needed a mini-vent. I am happy I’m at day 92, going to try and focus on that today.
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Welcome Bodhi and red, and congrats Polaroid 3! You made it past the WORST. Wonderful urge surf.
All in all those urges get weaker, and every time we choose to believe the lie, that BEAST gets stronger.
All in all those urges get weaker, and every time we choose to believe the lie, that BEAST gets stronger.
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Originally Posted by Willow00 
Polaroid that’s 3 months! Awesome work! Well done ignoring the AV, I know it can be so hard to ignore, especially when emotionally challenged ! But the more we ignore it, the weaker it will get 
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Intro, we will soon be seeing you in the Overs as another 'Undie-graduate'!
Polaroid, you are hitting the stage where PAWS can have some affect, I remember getting quite growly and snappy, very unlike me. Some of my classmates were going through some strange symptoms too and we eventually realised that's what it was! I sat hubby down and explained to him what was going on inside me and begged his patience. He was so proud of what I was doing that he persevered with me and only had to hide under the stairs a few times
Red, I know you suffer quite badly with early withdrawals so please look after yourself, plenty of nourishing food and praise.
Keep Strong through the Silly Season my friends
Polaroid, you are hitting the stage where PAWS can have some affect, I remember getting quite growly and snappy, very unlike me. Some of my classmates were going through some strange symptoms too and we eventually realised that's what it was! I sat hubby down and explained to him what was going on inside me and begged his patience. He was so proud of what I was doing that he persevered with me and only had to hide under the stairs a few times
Red, I know you suffer quite badly with early withdrawals so please look after yourself, plenty of nourishing food and praise.
Keep Strong through the Silly Season my friends
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on day 4
bit of a rough night with vomiting's and diarrhoea - but no serious withdrawal stuff (might have been something I ate)
I'm a bit jealous of some of long quit times by people I used to be ahead of ...... how petty :-)
I'm feeling quite happy sober (had a really miserable time when I was recently drinking - sad and angry)
anyway - well done if you did another day :-)
bit of a rough night with vomiting's and diarrhoea - but no serious withdrawal stuff (might have been something I ate)
I'm a bit jealous of some of long quit times by people I used to be ahead of ...... how petty :-)
I'm feeling quite happy sober (had a really miserable time when I was recently drinking - sad and angry)
anyway - well done if you did another day :-)
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Originally Posted by tootsl1
Intro, we will soon be seeing you in the Overs as another 'Undie-graduate'!
Polaroid, you are hitting the stage where PAWS can have some affect, I remember getting quite growly and snappy, very unlike me. Some of my classmates were going through some strange symptoms too and we eventually realised that's what it was! I sat hubby down and explained to him what was going on inside me and begged his patience. He was so proud of what I was doing that he persevered with me and only had to hide under the stairs a few times
Red, I know you suffer quite badly with early withdrawals so please look after yourself, plenty of nourishing food and praise.
Keep Strong through the Silly Season my friends
Polaroid, you are hitting the stage where PAWS can have some affect, I remember getting quite growly and snappy, very unlike me. Some of my classmates were going through some strange symptoms too and we eventually realised that's what it was! I sat hubby down and explained to him what was going on inside me and begged his patience. He was so proud of what I was doing that he persevered with me and only had to hide under the stairs a few times
Red, I know you suffer quite badly with early withdrawals so please look after yourself, plenty of nourishing food and praise.
Keep Strong through the Silly Season my friends
Looking forward to that. 
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