Class of February 2021 Support Thread Pt 1
well todays mood card is, Take a mindful walk. Think i will do that later today as the weather is not the best. If it doesnt clear up i will just go out when the craving hits regardless, maybe the wind and rain will blow away the cobwebs x
morning x well after all that positivity i did, i ended up having a small drink!!!! i never learn!! so back to the drawing board and back to day 1!!! going to see whats on my mood card for today. least i am back to work tomo also. i need to find a meeting in late afternoon, all great having the morning one, but when witching hr comes is bang goes the call of the craving! will see what i can find. sry everyone just having a small rant this morning, trying not to do the blame game withmyself x
How true is this? How tough are we to keep this going? I'm at a point of needing to choose my battle. Fighting harder FOR sobriety vs the thing that keeps pulling me back.
Last week I posted about avoiding responsibility and that's my "knowing." The quitting seesaw has kept me stuck so I don't have to take responsibility for things. I'm trying to face that now and pick up more loose threads in my life. Yesterday I made an appointment I had been avoiding. Was sweating to pick up the phone and make that call and then DONE (!) and it was such a relief.
Today I aim to clean a room that I avoid (unless company is coming) but there is no company these days. The room needs a good scrub and I'm here for it.
Last week I posted about avoiding responsibility and that's my "knowing." The quitting seesaw has kept me stuck so I don't have to take responsibility for things. I'm trying to face that now and pick up more loose threads in my life. Yesterday I made an appointment I had been avoiding. Was sweating to pick up the phone and make that call and then DONE (!) and it was such a relief.
Today I aim to clean a room that I avoid (unless company is coming) but there is no company these days. The room needs a good scrub and I'm here for it.
I’m really believing we can. I’ve been here for so many years trying and trying but for some reason something feels different. At least for me. For the last year at least I hated drinking. Hated buying vodka. Hated everything about it but was a slave to it. I’m truly enjoying feeling free of the cycle. Of course I have to watch that AV.
survived my night shift and came home and slept for 3 hours. Now I’ll stay up for the day and be in bed early. Next night shift is Saturday.
Have a new tv arriving today for our downstairs. So I’m going to get showered and wait for my new goody!!
Day 7 for me.
survived my night shift and came home and slept for 3 hours. Now I’ll stay up for the day and be in bed early. Next night shift is Saturday.
Have a new tv arriving today for our downstairs. So I’m going to get showered and wait for my new goody!!
Day 7 for me.
Day 6 woke up early to help Mom in the morning per usual. I think I got maybe like 4 or 5 hours sleep possibly. Had a mini break down last night to my mom about my siblings not helping -moreso my sister as she lives a mile away. Now that some restrictions are off I want to be able to see friends without always feeling like I got to jump through hoops. I think it was good for me as I've kept that pented in too long. Got some grocery shopping to do which is always fun lol Hope everyone is having a fab day!
Morning all - thanks to SS, VC and Dee for comments - welcome to all newcomers. I just got up for the day - I was laid in bed wide awake so I came downstairs to find it's 4:30am - well, I'm up now - lit the woodburner and got the coffee on - dogs have got out of their baskets and curling up in front of fire. Idyllic, really - 4:30am is so NOT my witching hour, but 12 hours from now it'll be different - aren't we funny creatures? Also, it's good to be able to post here - even at 5am - because I don't feel so alone.
Hope we all get through the day sober and maybe have some respite and even some laughs
Hope we all get through the day sober and maybe have some respite and even some laughs
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