venuscat

Love and hello dear FF.....so tell us.....what are you going to be studying at college? xx

freedomfries

Mech engineering.

I already completed some of fourth year, so I just have two projects and some exams to complete and then I'll be a fully qualifed engineer and I can start my career.

Day 42 now. Six weeks!

Dee74

6 weeks is great FF

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Willow00

That’s awesome Freedom! Both on college and 6 weeks of sobriety! Way to go

venuscat

Oh that is awesome!!!!

I come from a family of engineers.....my dad was a brilliant one, now 2 out of 3 of my nephews.

Wishing you all the very best to soar in your studies and have a wonderful career. ❤️

MaximusD

Awesome FF. Can that lead you to jobs like spacex?

Hewson1974

Day 65 completed. Golf with buddy and shot 79 which ties my best round ever. P90x workout in evening with a Headspace meditation afterwards. Tomorrow I need to run a virtual 5k, an “easy” p90x workout and read 2-3 CPT chapters.

stay safe & sober friends

Willow00

65 days is fantastic Hewson
I’m on day 44.
Just came back from a walk. I’m trying to get out every day, even if it’s just 10 or 15 minutes

freedomfries

Finding myself fantasising about stopping the Antabuse and going on a bender. :/

I'm even thinking of taping nips of vodka to my leg so I can keep drinking in the cell if I get arrested. :/

what is wrong with me

venuscat

We can have crazy thoughts and not act on them dear ff.
You can tell those ideas to take a flying leap and stop trying to sabotage you!!

MaximusD

FF, again I am worried about you. How are you doing now? Did you make it through the thoughts? Play the damn tape forward please.

freedomfries

Yeah I'm still sober

Willow00

Well done on not acting on those thoughts Freedom. Like Suze said, we can have lots of crazy thoughts but we don’t have to act on them.
I keep getting thoughts of drinking too. But I just identify the thoughts as AV and tell them to **** off. I’m trying not to let those thoughts hang around, trying not to engage with them or get caught up in them. I keep pushing them away and trying to distract myself. Then the thoughts do actually go away. And I’m trying to walk, every day, even if just 10 minutes. I think it’s helpful.

Day 45 today.

Dee74

are you still doing AA meetings FF - sounds like a good time for one?

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freedomfries

Lately meetings are triggering my paranoia and causing panic attacks. The last thing I need is another psychotic episode so I've been avoiding them.

Dee74

I'm sorry to hear that, FF.
I hope the new med regime helps and you can work something out - you've been doing really really well

Now is the time to redouble efforts tho - as much as you can.

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freedomfries

I've been very depressed lately and just wasting away in bed. Possibly PAWS?

But this morning I got myself together enough to brush my teeth, clean my room and go for a 4km walk. Feel a bit better.

Tomorrow I'm going to start jogging again. That always improves my mood.

I think it's partly unemployment blues. Hopefully when I'm back at college and busy, I won't be so depressed.

Willow00

I think having something to do really helps with depression. It’s great that you got up and got out for a walk. Running is a great idea to boost your mood Freedom. I went for a 40 minute walk this afternoon as I was feeling pretty down today too. I think it helped a bit.

Willow00

How’re you doing today Freedom? Are you ok? I’m still trying to go out every day for a walk. Only managed the minimum 10 minutes yesterday but that’s ok. I’m about to go out again now. I really think it’s helping me a bit.

freedomfries

Pretty depressed
Ate a bunch of junk food last night Not good

Going to head out for a walk this morning.

Tomorrow is six weeks from college. My mood will lift once I'm back I think
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