Class of March 2020 Part 7
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Class of March 2020 Part 7
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Thanks Dee
Hi everyone. An easier day today, getting back to stuff that supports sobriety. But still a strong voice persuading me to drink. I think I'd just got complacent with the silence of my AV, it had obviously been waiting and biding it's time!
Hi everyone. An easier day today, getting back to stuff that supports sobriety. But still a strong voice persuading me to drink. I think I'd just got complacent with the silence of my AV, it had obviously been waiting and biding it's time!
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Be, the AV is very cunning alright. It will lay low sometimes, come at us screaming insistently sometimes and use all sorts of subtle and not so subtle tricks to get us to drink. Recognising that any thought whatsoever that wants us to drink is AV is key. Continuing to do things every day that support sobriety is also key. All the AV wants is to drink, but we know the consequences of drinking. They suck bigtime. Sometimes it really helps to play the tape forward in your mind to the consequences and really visualising how bad it was. I sometimes read my old posts or my diary of when I was first trying to stop. It was soooo awful and hard. Sometimes a reminder of how awful it was is good incentive to stay the course sober.
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Just said to Be in another thread.....I think you will look back at this time with pride. You are doing everything in your power to make your recovery and sobriety a priority. 
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These are just speed bumps in the road where we just have to slow things down. We need to learn to deal with boredom, anxiety, emotions, pain, and other things without drinking. Your AV sounds exactly like you because it is you. It’s the weak part of you wanting to turn to drink instead of dealing with it. A person can be very intelligent but the AV levels the playing field. It is hard work to remain sober, at least in these early days. But hard work reaps benefits.
im in a good place right now but need to stay on my guard because things can turn quickly.
im in a good place right now but need to stay on my guard because things can turn quickly.
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Thanks guys I really appreciate your support.
Im getting to the stage of accepting this as my AV. I don't like accepting that, I thought I was past this particular battle (and I think a part of me is too proud to admit I didn't recognise it as my AV immediately - 'I'm too smart for that!' 🤔
Got my day planned and will keep moving forward
Im getting to the stage of accepting this as my AV. I don't like accepting that, I thought I was past this particular battle (and I think a part of me is too proud to admit I didn't recognise it as my AV immediately - 'I'm too smart for that!' 🤔
Got my day planned and will keep moving forward
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A sneaky chameleon....!!!! I love the language I hear on this site!
I've settled back into some sort of normality. I am looking for ways to accept my addiction and the fact I cannot drink, but feel more relaxed about that being a process rather than there being a threat of me drinking any minute
Night all
I've settled back into some sort of normality. I am looking for ways to accept my addiction and the fact I cannot drink, but feel more relaxed about that being a process rather than there being a threat of me drinking any minute
Night all
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Hey Be
I'm a little late to the party but glad to read you are feeling positive and looks like things are becoming well under control. You are stronger than your AV, you always have been - that's why you've come this far and were able to make that crucial decision back in Feb to embark on a new life and continue finding new ways to preserve your sobriety. You already put a gun to your AVs head and said 'pow' the minute you told on the sneaky devil and invited others to the party but I imagine you would have handled it with or without us. I guess this journey is full of pitfalls and challenges, hopefully they make us stronger huh?
Good work
Love Billy x
I'm a little late to the party but glad to read you are feeling positive and looks like things are becoming well under control. You are stronger than your AV, you always have been - that's why you've come this far and were able to make that crucial decision back in Feb to embark on a new life and continue finding new ways to preserve your sobriety. You already put a gun to your AVs head and said 'pow' the minute you told on the sneaky devil and invited others to the party but I imagine you would have handled it with or without us. I guess this journey is full of pitfalls and challenges, hopefully they make us stronger huh?
Good work
Love Billy x
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I agree with Billy, we’re stronger than the AV. And smarter.
The AV certainly knows all the tricks to try and get us to drink. But we’re smarter than it, so we can recognise it’s lies. So we can call it out and tell it to go away and leave us alone. Sometimes it does just go away. Other times it hangs around a while, but we’re also more patient than the AV so eventually it’ll get bored and go away. The longer we resist the AV, the stronger we get and the weaker it gets.
So we just have to continue to not drink.
One day at a time.
I will not drink today.
The AV certainly knows all the tricks to try and get us to drink. But we’re smarter than it, so we can recognise it’s lies. So we can call it out and tell it to go away and leave us alone. Sometimes it does just go away. Other times it hangs around a while, but we’re also more patient than the AV so eventually it’ll get bored and go away. The longer we resist the AV, the stronger we get and the weaker it gets.
So we just have to continue to not drink.
One day at a time.
I will not drink today.
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Willow, I agree one day at a time and sober muscles. I had 10 months sober once and let my guard slip at an emotional time. That was a good learning experience and if it happens again I will buy a big tub of ice cream.
BE, Bacon Butties? Okay, I Googled it out of curiosity and it sounds like something I would enjoy. I might add some scrambled eggs in there though, lol.
Three day weekend coming up and then it’s off to Florida next weeks, with stops at the Capital, Orlando, and then South Florida.
BE, Bacon Butties? Okay, I Googled it out of curiosity and it sounds like something I would enjoy. I might add some scrambled eggs in there though, lol.
Three day weekend coming up and then it’s off to Florida next weeks, with stops at the Capital, Orlando, and then South Florida.
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