Originally Posted by IcedVoVo

Thank you my dear friends. I’m thinking of some things I’d like to share, though they may not make much sense:

I will not drink, as I do not drink and it would only make everything worse. My heart couldn’t feel what it needs to, my mind could not process the same.

There are many sober hands to hold onto, and people in recovery will walk with me and hold me up when I feel weak and lonely.

Things will be very painful for a while, but they have been watching her suffer terribly for the past year. She would want me to find bits of joy and gratitude even now, and go on to be happy. I sat in the early spring sun this afternoon on my west-facing patio and looked everywhere for signs that there is beauty in all of this. I even got a little pink sunburn as I listened to the white-winged dove who are just beginning their annual nesting and incessant, hypnotic singing in my oak trees. I chatted with Suze and other friends and decided I would plant a garden soon. My mother was a fantastic gardener and grew flowers and tomatoplants for me from seed every year. She would want me to continue for her, and I will.

I was thinking about how opposite we are, and how that ended up being just fine. My mother was lively, bossy, spontaneous and artistic, whereas I have more of a quirky dry wit, am more reserved, people-pleasing (!) and practical/analytical. We clashed a lot when I was growing up, but in time she accepted and appreciated me, and I, her. I’m glad I moved closer 8 years ago and we had several healthy years together. There are many blessings that I don’t want to lose sight of in my grief. I must think of how grateful I am for our time.

Thank you so much for listening, it helps me a lot to share.

Love
Xxxx

Originally Posted by Sunflowerlife

I've had a lot of ups and downs lately as we prepare for our divorce. We are lucky that in our state we can now go through this process without having to fight it out in court, as long as we agree on everything and how property and custody is divided, in detail of course.

He is emotional and paranoid.
I am angry most days and just don't want to be around him.
But the move out date is set to July 1st so at least there is an end in sight.

God give me the strength to get through this. Everytime I go into a place of fear about the future I remember that everything is going to be okay- I know this to be true because I feel greatly supported by Spirit and the powers of the Universe.

I am trying out caregiving today- looking after a woman who has had multiple strokes and seizures. We shall see how that goes. I also got my first official Reiki client last week since I posted my online profile on Thumbtack- it was awesome, he even tipped me (that was unexpected) and wrote me a 5 star review.

Things are coming along. I just need to stay strong and believe in myself.


I couldn't' do any of this if I were still a drunk.
I give thanks today for my sobriety and for SR for saving my life.
Have a great day everyone...