24 Hour Recovery Connections Part 465
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Join Date: May 2016
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Ugh. Not A good day. It was nearly impossible to keep my emotions in check today—but I sorta did. Did my absolute best. And I did not pick up. This is difficult to deal with.. I need a free pass to struggle a bit sometimes. A little humanity is a good thing, though it might feel awful and overwhelming at the time.
This would be a day where I’d go straight to the store after work for beer..or even have left early and bought beer. Nope. I went home and felt bad for a little bit..but rebounded. It’s not even 7. I had a light supper, and now I’m posting and am so grateful for handling things sober. This is a very sad time in my life. My worst year ever. And I’m sober. Someday things will get better and I can still be sober. It may be a long time but I have this gift of hope. If I think of the day there’s a lot of good in it..talks with good people, setting the foundations for things I’m not even aware of. Being human, feeling things..developing some resilience and most of all not picking up. Alcohol tells us that nothing will change and that bad feelings and every current situation will stay. It never does. Things are constantly changing. Alcohol also lies and says you need to celebrate and hold on to something good. Like it would help.
So glad to be here with you doing my double check. It’s like starting my day over.
24 please
Xx
This would be a day where I’d go straight to the store after work for beer..or even have left early and bought beer. Nope. I went home and felt bad for a little bit..but rebounded. It’s not even 7. I had a light supper, and now I’m posting and am so grateful for handling things sober. This is a very sad time in my life. My worst year ever. And I’m sober. Someday things will get better and I can still be sober. It may be a long time but I have this gift of hope. If I think of the day there’s a lot of good in it..talks with good people, setting the foundations for things I’m not even aware of. Being human, feeling things..developing some resilience and most of all not picking up. Alcohol tells us that nothing will change and that bad feelings and every current situation will stay. It never does. Things are constantly changing. Alcohol also lies and says you need to celebrate and hold on to something good. Like it would help.
So glad to be here with you doing my double check. It’s like starting my day over.
24 please
Xx
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Join Date: May 2016
Location: Texas, US
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Originally Posted by venuscat 
What happened today love....how is your mom doing....is today a bad day for her?
I know what this feels like....please know we are here every step baby.
s xx ❤️
I know what this feels like....please know we are here every step baby.
s xx ❤️Thank you Suze
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