Originally Posted by NoGoingBack

Good evening / afternoon / morning (delete according to local time zone of your preference)...

I’d like to check in for another 24 hours of sobriety and sanity if I may, had a long day and I managed to talk my way into working tomorrow and Monday which, being a bank holiday, is a great way for me to stay occupied.

The August bank holiday heralds mixed feelings for me, my ex partner and I ran a pub together and for the last few years have hosted a live music event on the bank holiday Sunday. That’s tomorrow and I’m struggling with my feelings, I miss her and my children so much.

It’s the first time I’ve not been there for it but thinking today about what a terrible state I was in last year. I relapsed on alcohol that day with a bottle of jack daniels that got dropped while I was setting up the outside bar, and was taking a lot of cocaine at the time. Feel so ashamed and guilty looking back now, I was in a really bad place and I just felt so lonely and pathetic.

I couldn’t reach out to anyone and I desperately wanted help but was too ashamed to say I’d relapsed, and too afraid of the consequences of telling the woman I love that I had lied and deceived her yet again.

Today I am sober, emotionally as well as physically.
I have a bloody good job which is something she begged me to do when we were together but I didn’t think anyone would employ me as I have no qualifications to my name, everything I know is self taught.

I couldn’t see back then just how bad things had become and how my behaviour affected those I love the most, the beautiful woman I hoped to spend the rest of my life with and our beautiful children who I’m missing out on watching them grow into young men.

So yeah, work and A.A. meetings are on the cards this weekend and I sincerely hope that this nice weather continues and everyone has a great bank holiday...

Thanks Dee and everyone else here, seeing my name on the daily pledge list is only a small thing really, but it helps to top up the feeling of accomplishment in recovery and I love feeling like a part of something.

Happy, peaceful wishes
James

Originally Posted by Quincy

May I please have another 24 hours with a side of determination? Thank you.

Originally Posted by Coldfusion

24 more for me too please!

8:00 PM in the Salish Sea.

Originally Posted by Red78

24 for me please.. I'm excited to be back on here after 11 days drinking as we all know it brings nothing good to our lives, can't wait to wake up Sober!