24 Hour Recovery Connections Part 454
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Member
Join Date: May 2013
Location: Coquitlam B.C.
Posts: 3,760
hello lovely people, how y'all doing on this sober journey....
me I'm great I got a sleepover with 2 beautiful granddaughter both 3 years old that want to expend time with grumpy old me oh the rewards of sobriety .
venus have a marvellous day .
24 hrs. reprieve of my addiction ....
me I'm great I got a sleepover with 2 beautiful granddaughter both 3 years old that want to expend time with grumpy old me oh the rewards of sobriety .
venus have a marvellous day .
24 hrs. reprieve of my addiction ....
Member
Join Date: May 2017
Location: Tyne and Wear, UK
Posts: 1,538
Here to maintain my commitment to another 24 hours.
I was at a football match earlier and I nearly had a wobble.
It is a lovely day here on Tyneside and there was a group of people having a bottle of lager each and having a really good chat and I thought to myself "Wow, that looks really nice. I could just do with one of those now".
I turned around and did something else, but it is amazing just how easy the old ways can pop back into your head.
Still, I'm home now, day 419 continues.
I was at a football match earlier and I nearly had a wobble.
It is a lovely day here on Tyneside and there was a group of people having a bottle of lager each and having a really good chat and I thought to myself "Wow, that looks really nice. I could just do with one of those now".
I turned around and did something else, but it is amazing just how easy the old ways can pop back into your head.
Still, I'm home now, day 419 continues.
Member
Join Date: Nov 2013
Location: Off the beaten track, UK
Posts: 812
Good evening / afternoon / morning (delete according to local time zone of your preference)...
I’d like to check in for another 24 hours of sobriety and sanity if I may, had a long day and I managed to talk my way into working tomorrow and Monday which, being a bank holiday, is a great way for me to stay occupied.
The August bank holiday heralds mixed feelings for me, my ex partner and I ran a pub together and for the last few years have hosted a live music event on the bank holiday Sunday. That’s tomorrow and I’m struggling with my feelings, I miss her and my children so much.
It’s the first time I’ve not been there for it but thinking today about what a terrible state I was in last year. I relapsed on alcohol that day with a bottle of jack daniels that got dropped while I was setting up the outside bar, and was taking a lot of cocaine at the time. Feel so ashamed and guilty looking back now, I was in a really bad place and I just felt so lonely and pathetic.
I couldn’t reach out to anyone and I desperately wanted help but was too ashamed to say I’d relapsed, and too afraid of the consequences of telling the woman I love that I had lied and deceived her yet again.
Today I am sober, emotionally as well as physically.
I have a bloody good job which is something she begged me to do when we were together but I didn’t think anyone would employ me as I have no qualifications to my name, everything I know is self taught.
I couldn’t see back then just how bad things had become and how my behaviour affected those I love the most, the beautiful woman I hoped to spend the rest of my life with and our beautiful children who I’m missing out on watching them grow into young men.
So yeah, work and A.A. meetings are on the cards this weekend and I sincerely hope that this nice weather continues and everyone has a great bank holiday...
Thanks Dee and everyone else here, seeing my name on the daily pledge list is only a small thing really, but it helps to top up the feeling of accomplishment in recovery and I love feeling like a part of something.
Happy, peaceful wishes
James
I’d like to check in for another 24 hours of sobriety and sanity if I may, had a long day and I managed to talk my way into working tomorrow and Monday which, being a bank holiday, is a great way for me to stay occupied.
The August bank holiday heralds mixed feelings for me, my ex partner and I ran a pub together and for the last few years have hosted a live music event on the bank holiday Sunday. That’s tomorrow and I’m struggling with my feelings, I miss her and my children so much.
It’s the first time I’ve not been there for it but thinking today about what a terrible state I was in last year. I relapsed on alcohol that day with a bottle of jack daniels that got dropped while I was setting up the outside bar, and was taking a lot of cocaine at the time. Feel so ashamed and guilty looking back now, I was in a really bad place and I just felt so lonely and pathetic.
I couldn’t reach out to anyone and I desperately wanted help but was too ashamed to say I’d relapsed, and too afraid of the consequences of telling the woman I love that I had lied and deceived her yet again.
Today I am sober, emotionally as well as physically.
I have a bloody good job which is something she begged me to do when we were together but I didn’t think anyone would employ me as I have no qualifications to my name, everything I know is self taught.
I couldn’t see back then just how bad things had become and how my behaviour affected those I love the most, the beautiful woman I hoped to spend the rest of my life with and our beautiful children who I’m missing out on watching them grow into young men.
So yeah, work and A.A. meetings are on the cards this weekend and I sincerely hope that this nice weather continues and everyone has a great bank holiday...
Thanks Dee and everyone else here, seeing my name on the daily pledge list is only a small thing really, but it helps to top up the feeling of accomplishment in recovery and I love feeling like a part of something.
Happy, peaceful wishes
James
2Cor5:17
Join Date: Feb 2013
Location: Between Doctor's opinion & pg 164
Posts: 4,187
Thank you V for reminding me that AA line coz I haven’t heard it in a long time
Yeah & I too I’m glad to have a fam here @ this thread who can identify with me or comfort me(sometimes both!) I have two pairs of shoes sitting in the boxes they came in, but I’m gonna keep hope alive that something will fall through for me
Thank you NMD for encouragement; went to two mtgs, got recharged & hopeful
Being a man who’s unemployed, makes your morale dip. But with God, AA & SR, life is much better & tolerable
24 mo
Yeah & I too I’m glad to have a fam here @ this thread who can identify with me or comfort me(sometimes both!) I have two pairs of shoes sitting in the boxes they came in, but I’m gonna keep hope alive that something will fall through for me
Thank you NMD for encouragement; went to two mtgs, got recharged & hopeful
Being a man who’s unemployed, makes your morale dip. But with God, AA & SR, life is much better & tolerable
24 mo
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